Volume III is hanging out here, it stretches from 03/01/2025 to 08/29/2025. Have fun spelunking through the pink coral hiding in my skull :)
Volume III is hanging out here, it stretches from 03/01/2025 to 08/29/2025. Have fun spelunking through the pink coral hiding in my skull :)
08/29/2025
The sliver of light between the eyelids
Closed eyes see nothing
and everything
Visions can dance and sing
or darkness overwhelms
It's a choice
To see the light in the darkness
To focus on the stars not the space
There are times when it is debilitating
a breaking point
Hold fast to the pinhole of light
let it fuel the furnace of your Soul
Become
AN UNWAVERING BEAM
OF
LIGHT
08/28/2025
The Ganks
It has been awhile
since I have slept with the trees and bees
but it still feels right
It is still warm
a good 90 degrees F warmer
than my last outing
I love the sounds of the night
the bugs, birds, critters
they all sing for me
I digress and now I rest
I'll see the Sun tomorrow
08/27/2025
Reaching for Light
The World has never been bigger
and although I am small
I am something
Whatever I want to be
I don't know what that is yet
but I'll find my way
Life always finds a way
There is hope it is just hard to find sometimes
Hope by nature is ever present
waiting to be grasped
I will grasp the light
08/26/2025
What I Wear
White shoes, flower socks
Black Pants, Brown Belt
Checkered Button Up, Brown Leather Jacket
Unzipped
Sunglasses, Black, that just
cover the eyes
A green watch that only tells time
A look distinctive, I think
for it is my own
Yet none of the garments
save the shoes, glasses, and belt
are my own
The rest from another
But me to put them together
I'm not sure what'd you call it
the style that is
I'm not sure if I ever cared
I, as always, am just doing me
08/25/2025
The collapse of the card pyramid
I watch the cards as they fall
They fold upon themselves
hazardously
knowing no one will be there to put them back in place
The cards, they are graceful
They knock and fly
like wild geese
and in all of us
there's a soft spot
that just wants to run and be free
But free from what?
Each other? Ourselves?
I'm not much sure wat any of it means anymore
08/24/2025
Fictional Birds
Oh how the nightwing goes through the dark sky
From tree to tree
slanking, never seen
Not raven, nor crow
something else
yet the same jet
black
Nightwings seldom flap,
rather they glide and climb from perch to perch
Nobody knows what they hunt for
but they look at a passersby with red eyes
08/23/2025
Love of Stories
Journeys start, end, are remembered
then forgotten
but they happen
which is a beautiful thing
because a journey is a story
and a story is everything
What fascinates me most about stories
is that we share them
A story allows one to learn
and be something they are not
without chewing on some poisonous berry themselves
Stories save lives and making them makes life worth living
08/22/2025
Unhidden Legs
These days I can feel every sinew of my legs
They are crying
I don't listen
I still pedal
I still run
I still dance
And my legs carry me into tomorrow
throughout today
where I get to learn about the days story
Today I learned a bit about myself
and a bit about friends
new and newer
Today was a good day
08/21/2025
Unknown
My eyes protect me from what I see
Their shields protect them from the small dangers
I am just writing nonsense
I have found myself
Afraid
Afraid of my solitude
and what to do with all this life I have
I know I will figure it out
and maybe I'm looking at this all wrong
I'll manage
08/20/2025
Energetic
I want to run
I want to ride
I want to climb
I want to burn so bright
Movement is awesome
and I enjoy its beauty
08/19/2025
Strangers
We are all strangers in the night
Blinded by darkness
Only seeing by twilight
into eachothers eyes
only our own reflection
and what we want to see
We are all strangers to ourselves
constantly changing
Our memories and state of mind
Not everything I know is true
If we could look at others the same way we looked at ourselves
maybe we would not be in this mess
Maybe
08/18/2025
Rehoboth
Down range in marsh
a flowering tree with white petals fluttered
Except the tree wasn't flowering
No the barren tree was covered in birds and it was beautiful
Ever shifting every flying in circles around the tree
They dance
They sing
They are white
They are flowers
08/17/2025
Accidental 14 Mile Run(PR)
On the water
by the fort whose flag was still there
Under a tree
sits a bench and me
I look out to sea and see
the soft waves billowing
into the seawall
and a gap in a large bridge
I feel the breeze and wick off the salty sweat
in my eyes
It's the life
and this is my favorite spot in Baltimore
08/16/2025
Who Knows
And everyday time marches forward
Doves cry out coos of harmony
and combines swallow fields like hoovers
I have long conceded that understanding this World
is beyond me
All I can do is feel
Now I am restless
Squandered half my day
I don't find it particularly relaxing
to piss away my life
I could've danced or sung
or played in the Sun some more
but I retired in isolation
with sleep my only consolation
I think I need more friends
08/15/2025
Talking but not Asking the Right Questions
I tend to talk a lot
then a little
I can't tell if it's good or bad
and I used to not worry but sometimes I do
I've been told I am more of a transmitter
than a receiver
that's strong
Life goes on
I love life and at times
Life loves me too
and that's... well
that's everything
08/14/2025
Whatcha gonna do when they come for you?
I will end up on the wooden ship
at the end of time
or will I cease to be before?
I do not know
but I fear
what we are capable of
and the direction we point our cannons
I just want to share a meal with the world
Not discriminate and dominate
There's enough food and seats for us all
08/13/2025
Musing
Everybody looks up to somebody
but what of God?
Who or what could be aspired to?
God knows
08/12/2025
First Date
One strike and I'm out
but I am free
and I got an at bat
I didn't even see the pitch and I swung and missed
but I honestly didn't want to pay this game
At least not with this pitcher
I'll play again
Don't worry
08/11/2025
Action
No one has ever gone forward without taking
a step
a step towards what they desire and away from what they fear
into a fear they do not know
Little or large, everything started somewhere
You, me, honey crisp apple trees
This Universe and everything in it
Began
Think not of what there is to lose
but instead what there is to gain
Go. March. Go!
08/10/2025
Needle and the Damage Done
Everyone has seen the needle and the damage done
Yet we drink and smoke till everything is numb
and pretend its effects are limited to One
Erratic cars under night stars
barrel down the avenue
another dollar is puffed away instead of stowed away for tomorrow
All to forget about the best thing we have
Life
Not to say don't have any fun
Rather just know whatever your doing
it is not just to yourself
08/09/2025
The Day will Come
One day the bells will ring
and all will hear their toll
will point their heads and listen
not to the chime
but each other
Unity is power
Unity comes from community
Which can't happen without community
so we must all listen
to the beating hearts of our brothers and sisters
They beat just like yours
Dance to the beat
let the hearts become
the Drums of Liberation
Dance and become powerful
08/08/2025
Raleigh
Well it ain't home anymore
which is strange
but the people aren't much different
but I am
I am tired. Goodnight
08/07/2025
Birds and Me
Birds fly South for Winter
I fly North
Birds fly North for the Summer
I fly South
08/06/2025
Wicked Things
Disease is cruel because it is often random and not preventable
Famine is evil because today it is man made
Why do we do such acts when we know their harm?
I'm not even sure if I'd like to know
08/05/2025
Research
Research
It ain't fast and failure is just part of the job
and I often forget that
because now it's my job
not for University
It's okay as long as you learn
and learn and try new things I shall
because that's what I like to do
Shed away this insecure nonsense
I am doing alright
08/04/2025
Welcome New Soul
Everyday is paradise
here on planet Earth
because everyday is a new Soul
joins the fold
Life is an amazing thing
so full of senses and stories
highs and lows
Stories make us human
and more Souls mean more stories
Stories, like Souls
last forever
They imprint on the Universe
as cosmic etchings
Same with Souls and their nightly dance
Today is a good day
08/03/2025
On Ovals
Ovals are a peculiar shape
unlike their brother circle
they've been squashed
the rectangle of circles
Not many things are ovals.
They're just kind of awkward
Not to say they are bad
just askew
The most famous oval is in Washington, DC
It's in a White House
and an orange takes phone calls in it
Ovals sure are strange
08/02/2025
The End of Public Media
Big Bird will never make it to Mars
because the orange groves have taken root at PBS
These oranges are not sweet
they are more weed than fruit
and they suck down the nutrients
to only enlarge their ugly selves
What's next or rather
What's left
How much more damage can be done
to Science and Education
and to what End
Ayn Rand is dancing in her grave
because the world might get to witness
the Hell of Atlas Shrugged
08/01/2025
The Hidden Night Sky
I am sitting on top of my rowhouse roof
listening and seeing sounds and sights
The red and white roar of sirens
The blinking green whirling helicopters
City lights, headlights, taillights
None of which are pointed at me
I am quiet I am dim
I do not add to the noise
But I do burn bright
just not in visual light
My Soul dances across the Stars
like Northern Lights
and do-si-dos with the other creatures of the night
Colours racing, streaking in spirals
every night
They never tire and they never leave
even after you're gone
My Soul is the green and yellow of ginkgo trees
and loves to soar in circles forever cascading forward
My Soul is bright
and my Soul is restless
My Soul is fueled by undying Hope
My Soul may get lost
but my Soul is sound
and knows where to go
without knowing where it's going
The clock tower is ringing
my Soul will continue to play
but my body will exit the night
and retire
Building People
Strangers are disassembled building blocks
To turn a stranger into a person
you must first go through a few steps
First take the blocks and sketch out their silhouette
Don't worry about being perfect, no one is
Most people never notice the slight right curve of my nose
Then adorn a name plate and affix it somewhere prominent
So you don't forget,
maybe even come up with a trick like
Laube, like a hotel Lobby
Now here comes the hard part
building a mock up of their Soul
Start by asking question
What questions don't matter so much as lost as you listen
and ask better questions later
Be careful and diligent with this step and avoid building to narrowly and monochromatically
You're trying to build a human not a character
As time goes on pour in memories, thoughts, feeling
Nothing is final
People always change
and unpredictably too
There you have it
a stranger no more
hold fast and make another
There's billions of them waiting to be built
07/31/2025
The Dark Side of The Moon
Most say you are mysterious dark side
since you never show your face
but I know
You are too proud of your war torn exterior
that has shielded us earthlings so long
Like the Statue of Liberty
stoic and looking towards the abyss
not with a smile
but nor a frown
Dark side of the Moon
you must have the most beautiful view of the cosmos
and all to yourself
I'd say see you around but you're tidally locked away
so I'll just say ciao
07/30/2025
The Bright Side of The Moon
Oh how bright you are on a dark summer night
Hanging low on the horizon
smiling down on a pale blue dot
Bright side you capture our sours
from floating deep into space
and throw our imagination of expansion
into overdrive
When I see you so full
I know it will be a good day
for today you don't feel so far away
Goodnight old man in the sky
07/29/2025
Alone Again
Well I have it all
a roof above my head
enough food to eat
meaningful work
exciting hobbies
but no one to share it with
no one to recount the day
with bliss on every syllable
It will come they say
even I am losing hope
When I close my eyes I see nothing but black
and I am having a hard time remembering what this is all about
I'll figure it out
I always do
It's just hard now and now is fleeting
07/28/2025
The dominance of Circles
Oh how the days keep on coming
and they keep on going
It's a merry go round right round
All these things are circles
days, life & death, Dante's Heaven and Hell
All circles
But what's so special about a circle being cyclical?
Can't any closed shape be cyclical?
Why the circles?
Because it does it the best,
and we life on a circle after all
07/27/2025
On Ignition
Putting pen to paper
is the hardest part of writing
starting
Everything that happens after
that can be refined
like cane into sugar
Imagined Worlds
are born raised, killed, and forgotten
before their creator etches their existence down on some sheet
A story being told does more good than no tale at all
and the first thing to do is do
07/26/2025
Coloured Organs
Yellow eyes hunger for anything that will come their way
Red hearts will bleed over any tragedy, no matter how small
Blue toes will trudge onwards without hesitation
nor sensation
Green ears will listen to everything as though the sounds have never been heard before
and gray brains will think think think
till there nothing worth thinking about anymore
07/25/2025
How
How did I get so lucky
to call strangers friends
How many lost souls wander around this fish bowl
and how few get to shine so bright
How wonderful life can be
How tragic we allow others to suffer
How come?
How does the World keep spinning?
and how will it know when to stop?
How disorganized can prose be
and still be considered a poem?
How would I know?
How explains all this but how can how?
07/24/2025
Why
Why do we ask so many questions
and why do we worry why the sky is blue?
Why married to because fill the satisfaction of the curious youth
Wondering why will get you by and will bring you fortune till you die
Buy why oh why do we why?
07/23/2025
When
When did it all begin?
When did nothing become something?
The Universe was at stop
then it's heartbeat start
and now we sit around wondering
when the cosmic soup was first created
and when it's going to be all slurped up
When us bipedal featherless beings figure it out,
then...?
When will that ever bring humanity peace?
When will peace be given a chance?
You can ask when till Hell freezes over
but we won't know till it happens
07/22/2025
Masters of Men
You Masters of Men stand on nothing
but plundered treasures of the Every Man
Despite your best efforts
I know enough to know
that you bleed just like the rest of us
And if it bleeds it can die
Distract us, turn us on each other
like the razor blade adorned cocks you think we are
and pray our necks don't stick out towards you
Keep up your debauchery
and hold tight to your bible
We know the true struggle
We followed the money
It's not Black, White, Jew, Muslim
No it has be told long ago
Power and the Powerless
and don't worry the revolution marches near
so clinch to your coin purse
and make a suit of armour out of nickels and dimes
because when the lead starts flying
people will die
Where
Where did the time go?
There?
Under where?
No, not underwear!
Under there!
Oh that's the spot
Where everything is
exactly where it is
To every place a where
and every where a place
07/21/2025
What
What thing am I
Whatcha lookin at
some sorta grammatical object?
What finds itself everywhere on its search for answers
What is a hotdog?
So common to American life we don't even question it
No one would know
What's for dinner or
What's new without using
What's up
What's a chameleon
it can even ask what's your name
07/20/2025
Who
Who?
Not the sound of the owl
but the query of man trying to identify another
Who is often accusatory
but finds itself a curious musing as well
Who is replied to with a name
at ugly times in history
a number
Who can replace he or she or they
after their presence is know
Who is a useful question
07/19/2025
Truffles
The only use I have for swine is for them to dig up truffles form natures gold mine
07/18/2025
Writing in the Dark
I've been on the road my whole life
I just didn't know it
07/17/2025
Cloud Pondering
Do the clouds look at us like we look at them?
Do they wonder when we will rain tears or imagine shapes our bodies resemble?
How would the clouds see?
Do they have eyes or can they just sense or maybe they aren't fantastical beings we personify?
If clouds do look down at us
I hope they like what they see because our lives are much longer than those dust beings
so it's all that they got
07/16/2025
Grappling with Adulthood
Yesterday's tomorrow sure feels like today
but different surely from Tomorrow's yesterday
The past melds slowly into the future
when there's nothing on the horizon
except the same old blue sky
It seems like time passes but nothing changes
except the dollars in the bank and the wrinkling on the skin
So this is what's on the other side
Endless opportunity with the only goals your own
What to do?
07/15/2025
Lost in the Jungle
Memory these days
is covered in a green haze
A jungle so dense light seldom passes through
Chainsaws and axes used to constantly hedge the periphery
but now there's no stress, no drive
The jungle is left untamed and is running rampant
Over the empty fields of tomorrow
Try to out run it if you can before you forget
why you are running at all
07/14/2025
Rain Again
Rain seems more constant
now than ever
and with the rain, rest
Something about the changing of the weather strikes eyes with dust
and hazes the mind till slumber
Sunshine peaks though every now and then
but everything is gray
One day it may start raining and never stop and all who wake will dive into a long sleep
07/13/2025
I broke a thing
Bumbling though novice
is as common as yellow stripes on bees
and can leave you with two sensations
laughter or disappointment
I sure think it's best to gaff at mis-happenings
It's the first go around don'tcha know
Sure it's easy to apologize
but if you know everything
what would be the point of all this anyhow
07/12/2025
Neighbor, you and me are not all that different
Across the Universe life runs so thin
but here
on Earth
it is bountiful
Rarer, I suppose is this so called Sentience
yet here
on Earth
we house Billions
It's a remarkable thing
nothing short of a miracle
Cosmically then
those who are physically closest to me
must be the most similar thing to me in the vast Universe
both chemically and by happenstance
for we are alive, thinking, in the same place, and at the same time
Love them or Hate them we are not all that different
07/11/2025
4 Way Light
There's something transactional
about an intersection
You give your time
it returns "safe passage"
You pour out exhaust
Your breathe in another's
It's a dance of petroleum and iridescent
either gone in a flash or a grueling reminder of time
07/10/2025
Clouds on retreat
Hissing concrete, sun kissed sidewalks signify
that rain has done its worst and is now packing up
to scurry home
Home amongst the seas and stars
Home amongst the canopies
People sing songs to scare clouds away and more to bring them back
as if there could be some melodic equilibrium that could grow crops
but not get sweaters soggy
The World would surely be better off with rains continued presence
than its eternal absence
but that's just my 2 cents
07/09/2025
Rained In
These Summer storms keep me at bay
They terrifying lighting and sudden
down pours
coat the dry city in a fresh coat of H2O
Sure you can run in the rain
but you can't tell me people love taking a soaked cotton shirt off their body
Oh how it stick and suck to ya like a barnacle
The rain is a reason to rest
but resting sure is boring
07/08/2025
Writing Narratives is Wicked hard, This "Poetry" is much easier, although I am more practiced. Time will tell
Inspiration comes in waves
Labor is consistent
Beautiful things happen when they peak together
Otherwise things are just done
I've got an idea, got to run!
07/07/2025
I said something I regret
My loose lips seldom get me into trouble
but they do cause personal anguish
Why on God's green Earth did I say that?
It's too late now
The only thing left to do is apologize
and change
Regret until I forget
then do it all again
Every days a snake eating its own tail
until you run out of gas and fall face first into the grass
07/06/2025
Favorite Bench in Baltimore
There are many benches
each like a TV station
You sit in them and watch a window into the World
Everyone has a favorite bench
It's a good idea to go bench surfing till you find your own
Sailboats rip roaring and the cool splash of waves
balance out the bright Sun
That's what makes my shady bench feel surreal
07/05/2025
York, PA
Towns that were once great hold a collective memory of what once was
even if generations have past
They hold onto history to make taking the daily dose of reality more palatable
It is sad but natural
Nothing gold last
Time tarnishes all
07/04/2025
Love for Americans
There are times I've fallen in and out of love with America
but I have never faltered in my love for Americans
We are so independent
but at the end of the day
the good lot of us
can see past the whites of eachothers eyes
and see the Soul
We all want opportunity
We all want freedom
We all want rights
We all hold onto hope
I am proud to be an American
07/03/2025
The All Mighty American Dollar
You can talk all day and plot all night but the dollar always wins
for the dollar is power
Power to buy votes
Power to change laws
Power to kill
Power to decide who is born
Power to decide how much Power one can have
I'm not sure how politicians sleep
It can't be well even on their eagle down comforters
07/02/2025
I made a promise to Elie Wiesel that I would never been indifferent(I never met the man)
All this politics is making me not care
which I guess is the objective of those fat cats
They breed indifference
But I cannot be indifferent
I will think
I will act
I will not let myself or others go down without a fight
I know the good we are capable of
07/01/2025
Idols
I'm not sure if Kurt Vonnegut and Toni Morrison ever met
but I would have loved to have seen them talk
The stories they would tell
I hope that one day
I will be able to tell a story a tenth as well as they do
I dream of being a novelist
This has been my practice
06/30/2025
The Rear End of the Statue of Liberty faces the Greatest City on Earth
I understand more now why Lady Liberty looks out to Sea
I believe she hopes for better things over yonder and puts her back on a seeming lost cause
Now I don't know how she can keep a stoic face
during the good and the bad
Maybe it's been all bad
I pray we can all sleep well
I'm not sure what It means to be an American anymore
06/29/2025
Summer Cold
I cannot remember the last time I've been sick
especially in the Summer
I heard only fools get sick in the Summer
So I guess my degrees are wearing off
It's nice though to rest
I just worry I will become idle
You're supposed to drive fast cars fast
06/28/2025
I have a really hard time spelling tomorrow
The Sun will come
Again Again
Tomorrow and every day hence
no matter where the Sun rises
Over the peaks, in the valley
fields golden, skin baked
P.S. Pretty sure I gave up on this one.
06/27/2025
Is a broken record right twice a day?
I tell people the same stories about myself
and for some reason think that they should view me as something different then those stories
I chirp the same lines
on and on
and expect novelty
of course it neve comes
I wish I could start again
something
Oh well
06/26/2025
Spicy Fingers
Always wash your hands after handling habaneros
If you don't, don't touch your eyes
and for Pete's sake don't starch your balls
It hurts
06/25/2025
Wyman House
I will probably never know
what happened to the man
who sat himself over that tall balcony ledge
He was naked and it was hot
and he was there when I left of work
and still there when I got back
I had talked to a lady on the street in the morning
She had a pretty name that started with an L
I can't remember what it was
She said she had lost 8 people since October
and that the man must have missed his medication
She said this was awful
I agreed
I told her of my stories of suicide,
she hers
But I was hopeful, for there was still hope to be had
because he was alive
shouting and alive
It's dark now. Nearly midnight
and the firetrucks and EMS that have been here all day
have rolled out
I could go outside and ask around
to find out his fate
but I'd rather just hope
that he's alive and in good company
We are not all that different for that man upstairs
I wish there was some way I could carry his load
Share our suffering so they become diluted
It's wicked all this pain can build up in one Soul
I think we'd all heal if we all felt the same pain
I don't think we'd kill each other
Imagine the pain of thousands of deaths from an Atomic Bomb
I wish I could help
I hope he's alive or in Heaven
06/24/2025
Master of None
I've never really mastered anything
not cycling, nor climbing, and not poetry either
I have a piece of paper that says I've mastered mechanical engineering but we know that's not so
It's strange
I've been around those who are experts but I've never picked it up myself
Time will tell
06/23/2025
It's hard to write a title to something so patchwork and disjointed
The last time I walked down this road my eyes faced South and my frame felt small
Now I stand proud and look up at the birds that always chirped and to the Sun who burns forever more
The World seldom changes, at least compared to me and what I see
To think that today is someone's best and another's worst always fascinates me
Most of us are never those chanced two and we all get by
06/22/2025
Everyone Deserves a Home
Everyone went home
Some close others far
but everyone made their way back
even those going somewhere new
Home follows like a shadow
creeps up on you like sharks and minnows
and sticks to ya like gumballs
Homes grow, they change
shrink too
Everyone deserves one
Everyone deserves to be safe and loved
No matter who they are or what they did
Nothing is too late
and everyone deserves a home
06/21/2025
The Book Wedding
There is no joy so pure
as to see your friend marry
It's better than the burst of flavor
that comes from really enjoying a grape
It's a feeling of hope solidifying
becoming true
A sign of better things to come
A moment where everyone can come together
and celebrate the best thing we Humans do
Love
Joe and Sarah Book
Godspeed!
I Love you both!
P.S. This was the first wedding I went to. It was beautiful. It was really nice to meet the people that made my friend the man he is now. I am beyond honored to be numbered amongst them! Got to meet some really cool people from Atlanta too!
06/20/2025
Driving to a Wedding
For a close friend there is no distance too far
no cost to high
nor inconvenient too great
that would prevent me from showing up in crisis or celebration
Today I am celebrating
and every mile and minute that passed as I navigated myself to Whitsett, NC
my smile grew
Two beautiful souls will be married tomorrow
That is something we can all celebrate
06/19/2025
Mental Whiplash
I am not sure if I am alone
in this but whenever I am happy for too long
something will come along and collapse
my satisfaction and plunge it low
Maybe I just have bad chemistry in my brain
Part of me I think likes to be melancholy. Some left, right hemisphere stuff
Let me sleep it off
Sleep often helps
06/18/2025
Dog Days
The days go by smoothly
for I am stress free
Sure I've got things to do
but they are all for me
I rest easy every night
I shed only tears of job
There is a calm in my life
and I am holding fast
It will pass as all things do
but for now I am happy
and that's a good thing
06/17/2025
Bad Hair Day
Sometime between dusk and dawn
the fur on my head goes on a wander
North past the scalp
East and West perpendicular to the ears
and South down my forehead
Most of the travelers find their way home in the dark
others miss roll call and get caught mid orbit
on the ends of their tethers
Depending on the severity of their crime
a firm hand of justice may pat them down
The worst offends get waterboarded
then beat into submission by comb
It's rim but at least they live
long lives before the trim
06/16/2025
On Windows
Windows make the inside feel like the outside
Its is nice It is nice
The Sun the Sun
It's rays make me smile
Every room should have a window
06/15/2025
Video Killed the Radio Star
Mono to stereo to surround sound
but our ears stayed the same
Tube to plasma to LCD
but our eyes stayed the same
Joysticks to remote controlers to virtual reality
but our hands stayed the same
Our toys change but we stay the same
That same void haunts us
Time
and how we spend it
must be the principal concern of humanity
I think the good lot of us
would watch the Earth's flame flicker out if we didn't have to worry about starving and all that
Again, maybe not... We have each other too.
06/14/2025
Funny Words
Some words are just plain fun to say
Sushi, Shawarma, Penelope
They tickle the tongue and warm the vocal cords
Have fun with words and how you say them
It's your world
06/13/2025
State Station to Owings Mills
It was quiet
or rather no one talked
on the metro
Everyone was in their own World
and in their worlds they were alone
it was mundane
Just a heavy machine that moves people
I'd agree with that sentiment, but it was my first time on this ride
and I'd brought my own wheel along
The station announcements were opposite but we all go to where we were gong
Sure it's slow but it's really time back just to be
06/12/2025
I guess I am happy with my legs??
Legs anchor the body to the Earth
They make us move
Run, jump, swim, cycle
They are long and powerful
A healthy leg can accomplish anything its owner please
They are dependable
After exercise they may scream
but they are growing
like rings of an Oak
Sturdy
They can struggle to listen when you've put a few drinks down
but they do their best to keep your face above your shoulders
Legs are awesome
06/11/2025
Our Leader is a Thug, if Hitler was a woman Trump would probably sniff his panties
Dreams are of many things
Romance, Fantasy, Memory
American Dreams are of opportunity
Life, Liberty, Pursuit of Happiness
Dreams come from good rest
not unrest
So when the President believes that he can snatch anyone off the street and send them who knows where without even asking if they're a citizen
How can American's dream?
Dusk is here
This is an American Nightmare
and I fear what horrors we can come up with
06/10/2025
This is like a salad of peanuts and raisins, bad
It's fire I don't know what else to call it
that's rampaging my mind
Restless, Raging, Passion, Devouring, Fear Inducing
I don't know if what I am doing is good
but I'm doing it
The mirror gives no solace it just stares back
with a same questions and the same answers
Clutter too is my mind
jumbled up like alphabet soup
I'm probably just excited
This surely isn't prose
Sorry dear reader I'll do better tomorrow
Scouts honour
P.S. Yeah I've got no clue what the hell I was talking about here. I like that mirror line. I can't decipher this shit.
06/09/2025
It ain't worth it to cry over spilled milk
I didn't write a poem last night
I guess I forgot
Huh...
06/08/2025
9 to 5
Tomorrow will be like today
except it will mark something unseen
It will not feel all too new
after all I've trained for it my whole life
but something will end and something else will begin
Some fear and dread
think they'd be better off dead
Others view it as a means to an end
Opportunity, fortune, a civic obligation
I'd be lying if I didn't feel them all
But one thing is sure
This path is my own
and will be till the day I keel over
so whatever I do I want to make sure it does one thing at a minimum
Reduce Human Suffering
Now matter how, I will
06/07/2025
Must have been pretty lazy to write something this short
The air is sweet
the streets are full
everything is alive
and there's always something new
Welcome to Baltimore
06/06/2025
Baltimore Bike Party - May 2025
The faint smell of gasoline
and the roaring of wheeling motors
brings a smile to my wry face
Even I cannot deny the joy of dirt bikes
and bicycle wheelies
it is simply to pure
It's chaos, yes
Permitted to
Encouraged
It's freedom for a few hours
to act a fool on any road
Highway or high Hell
It's the Baltimore Bike Party
Grab a drink and ride
P.S. This reminded me what I like Baltimore
06/05/2025
Cycling Up Hills
Hills are painful but only in one direction
So never surrender
Make your way
Anyway you can
Then it will be alright
06/04/2025
Without Me
It all goes forward
with or without
society moves forward
but without individuals there nothing
So really the world can't go on
Unless a tree in the woods makes a sound
It will be different though
a little less salt in the water
but it will go on
And that's a good thing
Treasures should be shared
Anyhow the future is laden with gold
06/03/2025
Natural Colour Mixing
Yellow is the Sun
Blue is the Sky
Red is the Sunset
Yet yellow and blue don't make red
So how can that be?
Science?
I guess I understand
06/02/2025
Handing Art
Hanging your old art in a new place is therapeutic
New beginnings bring new fears
and no one to comfort you but yourself
Of course this new life was chosen
a side effect of decisions made long ago
and there is something calming about the past
Looking back is inherently regressive
but that doesn't make it wrong
After all Romans figured out concrete long before we did
No the past may always be behind but we can bring tis fruits into the present
By hanging old art on new walls
It serves no utility but even my mechanical mind can appreciate
colour and dreams
06/01/2025
Personal Decoration
There have been times when I have owned nails
Others when I had access to a hammer
fewer when I've had framed art
and only now walls I am allowed to hang them
I may not own this place
but for the next 14 months it's mine
And I'm doing things my way
05/31/2025
Space Seeds
The World is a flower
it budded from a cosmic seed
and fed on gravitational waves
and magnetic fields
Its teenage years, fire\y
and now it stands tall
ready to be pruned
Mankind help the shears
Now the natural beauty fades
Only extended by oceans of water
and Nitrogen fertilizer
Flower food
The aroma is going off
and being replaced by a noxious gas
Our World is wilting
Decomposing
To give foundation for the next
Flower
05/30/2025
New Dawn
Dawn comes every day
which means there is always a new dawn
but tomorrow will be different
there will be a new life in this world
and although that happens all the time
this one is special to me
I don't know his name
but I know his mother and father
quite alright
They are of the finest people I know
and will steward the boy
I am hopeful for the future
I am not a pious man
but I believe hope
is an unwavering light like that of a soul
Welcome new Light
05/29/2025
Cruel World
Disease is wicked
and if it were up to me
I'd get rid of it
05/28/2025
Octopus
The octopus is hungry now
so it must hunt
It slays out each limb
in every direction sensing for anything that bleeds
It finds a lead pours all its attention
then its satisfied
05/27/2025
American Roadways
It always amazes me how connected the world is
ever road connected together
such that I can leave my house in North Carolina
and land in Maryland
all without off-roading
and with luxuries of rest stops and gas stations
It's quite amazing what we have created
Deadly yes, Polluting as well
but it is surely something remarkable
05/26/2025
Mind Wandering
I hear the dogs barking
They demand my attention
Yet I give them none
I'm focused on my work
They always bark
trying to steal my time
As if I have time to give
and to the hounds nonetheless
Not I, I am doing me
Islands envy my solitude
When I close my eyes
I am able to drown out the sound
and wander
It is colorful and bright
and full of puppies
A Dream
05/25/2025
Story Telling
Everything has a story
every molecule, every atom
ever since that Creator of the Universe
Created
Setting everything in motion
For every motion there is a snapshot
a picture and a series of pictures
tells a story
Of like of death
so small and beyond large
The Universe holds ever story
that has been told, is told, and will be told
It is awesome
05/24/2025
I guess I gave up
Back on the road again
back to the Old North State
Jesus signs and big old cars
Sunny skies
Eh this is no good
goodnight
05/23/2025
State of the World via the New York Times
Reading the news make the World seem like it's going to end
and if its all true it seems like the end of something
Education, immigration, innovation, globalization, cooperation, etc.
It's sad
Shitty really
I just hope everything will be alright
05/22/2025
The Colour of a Tomato
I saw a tomato today
it was sliced no more than a quarter inch thick
and it was a healthy red
But it was not as red as the crimson tomato I had in Ohio
I think of that tomato often
It was from some family garden
and it was the most red thing I've seen
They say you can;t describe colour in words but it was that tomato
The memory of its taste is fading but it will be the best tomato of my life
05/21/2025
People Time
Too much time with the same people makes me crazy
I guess that's where culture and language comes from
but it can drive you mad
At least it does to me
05/20/2025
Reflection on this daily ritual
I'm not sure why I'm so hellbent
on many things
but this things in particular
this daily log
I know it helps me
but there are times when it's just a motion
like brushing teeth
Abd what's a day anyways
twelve ante meridiem to twelve ante meridiem
or the hours you wake before you sleep
What if you nap?
Seems to me days are a spook
made up
05/19/2025
Can't sleep
I can't sleep
It sucks
send help
05/18/2025
On Water
I never really understood the appeal of the Ocean
I tolerate it for a few hours
then I get my fill
Same with a lake
although I don't mind paddling around as much
I used to spend so much time in water
Liked canned Costo chicken
except it was my choice
Back and forth
Probably why I never liked fluid mechanics
I'dve observed it too much
My hair is soft now
No more chlorine
05/17/2025
Rabbits in Hats
They say every rabbit wears a hat
and for each hat they wear they have a role
There's a firefighter rabbit
a doctor rabbit
and an astronaut rabbit too
Every rabbit has a hat
One day a tiny rabbit
who wore a teeny plumber hat
and this rabbit wanted to do more than pipes and water
This rabbit wanted to paint
But a rabbit can only wear one hat
for rabbits only have one head
So what's a rabbit to do?
Stack the hats? Wear one on each ear?
No that can't be. You must be able to wear multiple hats.
05/16/2025
Who knows
Are you drunk?
No way
I don't even know what that means
Anyhow if I was to drink
I wouldn't drive
The only thing I drank was water
If that counts then I'm waster and an alcoholic cause I can't live without the stuff
Could that Jesus fellow
control turning water into wine
or was it a Midas touch affair
If so he must have been a drunk
05/15/2025
Something I lost
I used to be nice
I used to hold the door open for every school bus
I still hold open doors
But I have wicked thoughts
and say wicked things
I have seen things
Lived through things
and have allowed them to corrupt
There are times I struggle to see light
It's there but my pupils are too small
Too long have I chilled my heart
and too frequent do I forget
to fan the warmth that still reminds
I'm trying
P.S. My housing boss got the boot
05/14/2025
Pantana's
Knack. hmm. Slot
The cue smacks the zebra ball in a decisive act
The ivory then rolls up to the next stripped victim
chambered it fired again bringing the ball to it's cradle
Behind the wooden stick stands a calm man
with neoprene gloves
that covers only the nook of the hand
He feels nothing but a small dopamine dose when the should strikes his ear
after each decisive act
05/13/2025
Do these come across as sarcastic like I intend them to be?
The boxes stack neatly in the square world
They say spheres are more efficient
but we like to champers our edges
no fillets
Life's easier at ninety degrees, even 45 is too perverse
Because right angles are right
and if we all conform it works out
A bulging box will knock the whole system out of line
so grab your edge and make it square
Life's better in a box
05/12/2025
Something must have pissed me off
Open wide
It's time for your medicine
Don't be so stubborn
it's good for you
it keeps you docile and happy
You don't even need to chew or swallow
just open an account
All you needs a few pounds or dollars
to sure up your altruistic needs
and replace them with something better
Greed
Greed is good, equality is bad
We are what we are due to the materials we had
Buy some eggs, never grow
that's what makes the economy
Go Go Go
05/11/2025
Now What?
Now's the calm before the storm
of the rest of my life
Now's the time to plan
not to predict but to understand
oneself so when life goes astray
at least you'll know where you are
It's time to shed the excess
Remove everything not needed
to save space and time
I guess it's time to be an adult
05/10/2025
Credit where credits due(University of North Carolina Chapel Hill)
The people's college
I kinds scoffed
but then I listened
We are in a land
of the People for the People
a Public Democracy
and in the First Public University
the People come First
and I'm from North Carolina
so I guess I'm a Tar Heel too
05/09/2025
Trumpet Duet(Stephon and Vance)
Two horns sprung out of the ground
and behind their silver shells
stood a man each
both of which I can call true friends
They play together which reminded me of all the times
we had been together
but now one of us will be gone
me
Their tunes will continue to duet
mine a new solo
and I'm not even sure what instrument to play
But I always know I'll have their music to guide me
and one day all together, we'll make a symphony
05/08/2025
The Mind Killer
Munch. Munch. Munch.
The mind consumes itself with worry
About decisions made by a younger self
and their consequences
H.G. Well's dream has yet to come true
neither future nor past
so fear runs rampant
a mental weed
I just wish sometimes that my friends and loved ones wouldn't worry
and that I could make their problems disappear
P.S. I am glad I am alive today to have met everyone I have and to live in a time of medical advancement
05/07/2025
Terrible Handwriting
I've been too fortunate to learn some lessons
mainly when to listen
and when to ask questions
I'm conceited like everyone else
but only a non conceited man
can truly learn and connect
I wish I had more time to try again
P.S. I have no clue what this one's about. Maybe it was smart at the time?
05/06/2025
End of Contract
Let me move on already
Why do they keep me here just to waste away
I'm done you know
I've done my final acts
No more labor will be extracted from me
I guess I can pack the rest of the things up
Get all ready to go
it's a countdown after all
05/05/2025
Uniforms
Every stage of life seems to have a uniform
Nothing for newborns
Onesie for babies
Graphic Tees for children
Scandalous clothing for rebellious teens
Caps and Gowns for University
Pressed blue collars for work
White dresses for Weddings
Dad shoes and Mom jeans for parents
Knit sweaters when you grow old
and a nice suit for when they lower you down
I'm not sure why but we seem to like dressing up
and I'd be lying to say I didn't
They make you feel like your fitting in
conforming which isn't always bad
Traditions have brought us here
05/04/2025
On Creation
In Genesis they talk about creation
but for the life of me I couldn't tell you why this Universe was Created
I could tell you more about the how
but it's all just black shots in the dark with why
Not all creation is shrouded in mystery
Creation comes oft out of necessity
to solve a problem or fill a niche
like a bike shop or some new way to see cells
It makes me wonder more what the why is
for the Creator of the Universe
What problem was being solved?
A need for expression, after all what's a painter to do but paint
I'm not sure but I hope it is for something
But then again does it matter?
P.S. Maybe the Creator of the Universe just got lonely.
05/03/2025
Commencement
I was there too you know
The black sheep in a sea of red
It was hot under the Sun
but then again I've been warmer
I'm no stranger to the North Carolina Sun
They didn't say my name
because I am not a doctor
and my robes weren't so fancy
a flash of an altered future of PhD
passes through my mind
That is a path, not for me
No I am going North
to do more doing than thinking
and the doors I've not opened
are just closed not locked
Let's see where the road takes me
for now I'm just glad
05/02/2025
Short
Times running thin on my time in Raleigh
but I'm still here
05/01/2025
I guess there really is an end
I guess that's all she wrote
for this chapter
If you'd have blinked you'd have missed it
It was an interesting story
It had a clean beginning, middle, and end
The twists were exciting
and it's nice to know it doesn't end on a cliffhanger
We don't know what will remain unwritten
but I think I have a clue
There were some clear themes
and I suspect there is some foreshadowing
What I hope most is if our protagonist does not forget where he came from,
continues to hold humanity in his heart,
continues to learn with an open mind,
to acknowledge his luck,
and to share his life with family and friends
Godspeed
P.S. I know most people who read these just read the email. Which is cool but I never wanted that to be the experience. I'm going to miss this place alot. These have been the best 5 years of my life I have made so many friends and stories. Shoot I'm going to break my rule and use peoples names. Theres no particular order to this so don't take it personally. If I forget you here you must have misread it because in my heart I've written everyone. I Love my Mom. I got a new father in Fredric. I have new brothers in Luca and Adrien. I of cource have my little Jun Jun who showed me the world. I have my two Ryans, Abell and Dukes. Who could forget AC. I got an amazing mentor and friend in Joe. He is one of the few people in my life to really just listen. I listened too and I know we are better because of it. I'm crying now. It's hard not to cry. I'll still type. I made so many friends biking. I love biking. It's liberating. I really loved riding with Stephon. He always makes me smile. I will miss blocking him in at Jubala with Ben. I don't know where I'd be without Cam and Vance. I'm not sure if they know but I look up to both of them dearly. They have amazing wives too in Lauren and Sarah. They too listened to be and accept me for who I am. I was in love in college to once. I really did love Julie. I hope she is well. I had so many amazing professors. Kate, Kamper, Mazzolini, Ferguson, Buckner, I would list out every professor I had because they were all so insightful. I will miss being surrounded by giants. I really did like the pasta night crew. They are a good bunch when you sit down and look at 'em. We were all 'special' in our own ways. I am losing steam as my tears are running low. I guess my boy heart can't keep up the water works for too long cause it hurts too bad. I got to fly a plane last week with Joe H. That was insane. I got to go ice climbing with Scotty. I got to help change the world with MoBL in the little way I did in research. I really liked that lab. Full of good and passionate people. I met so many people though housing. Too many to name and even more to remember. I think I did a decent job. I hope so. It's hard to summarize 5 years in text. I guess that's why we have poems and stories. To write down the emotions that we can all share. I am so lucky to have a job after this. I am so lucky that I will get to work in the medical field and even luckier to work on a device that is used in cancer and drug discovery. I know I didn't just get married but I feel like the luckiest man alive. I have been so fortunate with those who are around me. I have loved them all. I know I can be a short and blunt son of a bitch but it's mainly just because I am afraid of showing my true emotion. I care a lot about people and worry too much if they care back. There's a lot of recency bias in all this text. I acknowledge that. but... I don't mind because this is what I am feeling in the now now. It's getting late now. And I can't miss my penultimate Jubala ride. I love you all. Peace.
- Jacob Laube
04/30/2025
Unlucky Streak
It's always when you want it least do things go wrong
Goodnight
P.S. Resident with suicide ideation. Razor blade to the finger and chat with EMS. Late to train pick up. Work from home hell.
04/29/2025
Anthony's Song(again I think I've already used that title)
It's all in boxes now
Everything I own
Now I'm not much the materialist
but life's quite dull when everything's in boxes
and your left with just you need
I guess it's nice to just get by
Scrape the barrel
It gives you a better appreciation for
how good you've got it
Kinda like camping
Where everything you need is on your back
except you
don't have to move the boxes but once or twice
Moving is an exciting hell
04/28/2025
Social Incompatibility
Not all gears mesh
Some are beveled others toothed
and no matter how you cut it
they won't work
Something has to go to make the system go
04/27/2025
The Poem I'm Expected to Write
I've been told these are supposed to rhyme
so I'll give it a go
After all it's about time
that I practice my pen and flow
There's a lot that goes into a poem:
Rhythm, Tone, Meter
Unlike my usual half-baked bro-hymn
those are just for fun, my personal theater
Don't let me forget about ample alliteration
oh, and a melancholic metaphor too
I hear you get points for complex dictation
and I want marks so hot they turn blue.
Structure, how could I forget structure?
You've got sonnet, haiku, that dumb acrostic
A different type for each of life's junctures
Sorry for the nip at the tail, satire's supposed to be caustic
Well I hope this satisfies those that doubt
that my rambling nonsense comes from a lout
P.S. I spent way too long on this... Maybe say 50 minutes. I was at Mitch's Tavern earlier today and someone asked me what I do besides "exercise" and I said I write poetry. I showed them this website and they asked me. "Aren't poems supposed to rhyme?" So here I am writing a poem that rhymes for all of you out there that likes rhyming I guess. Also if you can think of a better rhyme for poem than my slant rhyme bro hymn let me know. I'd also be lying if I told you I am in love with this line "Sorry for the nip at the tail, satire's supposed to be caustic" but I kinda pigeonholed myself there trying to rhyme with acrostic(which I think are "stupid" poems for kids).
04/26/2025
I've never had a 4.0 before so the thought of losing it in the 11th hour is eating at me
It's the little things
that cause the most distress
You can't make the coin flip to your favor
Sure it seems like a sure thing
but it isn't until it is
It's all like that dead or alive cat
and I'd sure be stressed out if my cat was
quantuarnaly dead or alive
So I've got to wait
The work has been done
Now I just have to wait for lift off
and bite my nails
Godspeed
04/25/2025
Jubala Jubala Jubala Jubala
100 miles
4 laps
of the best ride in Raleigh
2021 Spring I first went on Jubala
I don't remember it
But I do remember the people
Many of which who have left
Many too have stayed
Now I am leaving
for new opportunity
but with every opportunity there is a cost
Seldom will I make new Jubala memories
but to me
the ones I have already made
could sustain me for a lifetime
Thanks for riding with me
04/24/2025
I flew a plane
Come fly with me
Come fly Come fly Come fly
where we will watch the clouds run away
The black roofs below soak up the fleeting Sun
to keep the little people warm in the night sky
Icarus would have never dreamed of such a lavish ride
No one know what the day will hold until it's done
till then come fly
04/23/2025
Typical Anti-Automotive Sentiments
On the road again
driving from place to place
alone in my steel bubble
All I see is asphalt and people alone like me
I'd walk if I could
I'd surely bike
if only there was a way in sight
I'd take the bus if it was close
and wouldn't take so long just to drop me far away
So here I am
alone with Uncle Sam
wondering where we went wrong
Am I so free if everything I do requires me to stop and fill my car with oil?
04/22/2025
So Long North Carolina State University, I loved you so
For the past five years I have spent
the majority of my life within a one mile radius
learning
and learn I have, some say I've mastered it(as if)
but I have lived a lot too. Laughing, Loving, Crying, Dying
These walls some call prison
I call home
I have made lifelong connections
I have come cloer to understanding what it means to live
I have survived
When I look back, even now before I've left
I know this time was special
and the most significant thing I've done thus far in life
Now I am ready to share what I have learned with the World
To make it a better place
And don't worry
We'll meet again
04/21/2025
Who even knows
Green leopards dance across the Sun
searching for forgotten pasts
when they owned the Night
Our feline friends
walk only on 3 feet, always
rising their front right paw
like some 1940s fascist but that's not so
They always seem to get a splinter and haven't growth thumbs
to pick 'em out yet
So they avoid true dark
so they don't step on twigs
so they can one day walk on four again
04/20/2025
Blatant Lyrical Plagiarism
I'm about to hit the road Jack
No ones going to screw with me
no more no more no more no more
I won't look back Jack
oh no oh no oh no I won't
I know what's right and I know what's wrong
and ain't no ones going to shake that away from me
I've walked around long enough to recognize
such wickedness and I am no executor
so I'm gone
Gone home where the Sun doth shine
Home where my heart is
Home where my family is
waiting for me
04/19/2025
I think they call it gaslighting
Breathe in. Breathe out
Everything is alright
No one can break your will
You know what's right
So do it
04/18/2025
On getting jerked around
No ones going to pull a fast one on me
I don't car who you think you are
but I don't go down without a fight
Kiss my Kosher Ass
04/17/2025
Wrong Lesson Learned
One of the wrong lessons
I learned was intentional isolation
Too much pain and Simon and Garfunkel
convicted me it was better to be a rock
and that my poetry would protect me
But in reality I have just built a Fort Knox
to protect a scar, not an open wound
I've long felt, feared even
that people do not care about me
and in doing so I stopped them from entering my World
or dismissed any semblance of good intention
Now I am left asking
what good is a shield when there is no war
04/16/2025
Apples
Apple trees bloom
when the crows caw
and frogs croak
They smell so sweet
and taste sweeter when they grow fruit
Apples by the bushel
I could eat them all
04/15/2025
Getting it done
Ink Ink Ink
Pen Pen Pen
Write Write Write
Letters
04/14/2025
Who Knows
Walking at Night
Walking at high noon
and I always whistle the same tune
Living my life like I live on the top self
When I am alone I always got myself
and my feet carry me wherever I want to go
Doctor says my mind runs fast
I think the world runs slow
The Sun is finally alive again
and I'm dreaming of snow
I take a breathe and so on
with my bonsai life
slow growing and purposeful
That's the way I like it
Always changing Always upwards
04/13/2025
Rat Race
The end is near
but there is still work to be done
There's always work
That's okay
Forward Forward Forward
The race is not run till it is done
04/12/2025
Passover
Four questions
Four glasses of wine
Ten plagues
Ten commandments
Forty years
Generations of Slavery
Generations of Freedom
Thousands of years
Remember the covenant
Remember the suffering
Rid that suffering from the World
Oppose oppression with every breathe
Then we will all live
בישראל בשלום
Remember Passover
Celebrate Passover
תקן עולם
04/11/2025
The Jungle at the End of Time
The light is growing
but soon it will stop
for it can only grow so large
and my machete will catch up with the expanded jungle
and wack everything down like it once was and should be
That day is coming and I am ready
but I have been fighting so long
I'm losing sight of the flight
I had a second wind
The help of others will sustain me
I will succeed
04/10/2025
The Night Tomorrow
The sun will come out tomorrow
where the rain will walk far away
I rest partly into the night
sailing on my way to tomorrow
Goodnight moon I'll see you tomorrow
Goodnight light I will see you tomorrow
Goodnight tomorrow
04/09/2025
Night Moves
Walking in the dark
wondering who to call
this late at night
It rings then I'm talking
to the machine
Let's try someone new
Oh hello, Sorry it's late
I just wanted to see
how you were doing
It's lonely to walk alone
and the streets are always alone
at this hour
We chat and I find myself
at home at last
04/08/2025
Sequoia in the Sand
High noon Sun beams cascade
over the granulated landscape
A slight breeze guides the eye
to a non-oasis anomaly
A sequoia is trying to grown in the dessert
There is not enough water
The soil is poor
The only thing in excess is UV and heat
and this is where the unfortunate seed landed
Our tree could have outgrown Hyperion
in the right environment but instead
it chose to grown in the sand
with no one to push it towards greatness
The sapling will survive though
I doubt it will thrive
04/07/2025
Apartment
Where did they go?
Has my isolation aspirations pop too soon?
I did it to soften the blow
but here I am
alone again, naturally
My apartment is nice, close, convenient
I guess I'm not
too closed off
too disinterested
too afraid of a connection
I've said it before and
I'll say it again
Sometimes I fear I've learned all the wrong lessons
from what life has thrown at me
04/06/2025
Why the Good Die Young
They say the good die young
but say nothing of the old
and who is this They
and why do they crave an early grave
Seems to me if you die young
you die dumb
Too early to learn what's true
and for to early to fight for it
No I don't think the good die young
I think people just die agnostic to their quote un quote goodness
The young are strong but inexperienced
The old are fattened up and grow the compliant
But there are the old who are still strong
and grow wise
Those are They when the good runs dry.
04/05/2025
The Stoic
Today I read something about myself
which is always interesting
Am I so unmoved that I deserve the title of stoic
Do I show so little emotion?
I try very hard to be human,
not machine
but maybe I've been doing more math than people
for awhile now
Sometimes I feel like an open box in a high security vault
The emotions and stories are there,
just not for public consumption
Because I am afraid if people will not like what's inside
04/04/2025
Home of the stand still sweat
The Swamp has returned
to the Old North State
It's gummy air sticks
and clings to the skin
like it's about to drown
If the devil were to call a place it's home
the South in Summer would top the list
I miss the cold already
04/03/2025
Liberation Day
Throw it all away
all the work
all the lives
for an idea from a senile cent coloured man
Money's not real
People don't need to eat
Education only tells lies
America is Great
So let's chop off it's legs
and see if it'll still swim
Kick out the foreigners too
The last people who risked their lives
saving the American Dream
They still believe in it. Do We?
P.S. I guess we'd deport someone for writing something like this? Kiss my kosher ass you spineless serpents. I pray that your gods are true so they can sort you once this is all said and done.
04/02/2025
Staff Bowling and the thin skin of a narcissistic man
It's all funny now
I play the game
and my dear friend
is trying to hula-hoop
while unicycling with his shoes tied
He's got egg on his face
a lot of it
I'd feel bad but he did it to himself
I laugh. I don't care
04/01/2025
Last Thoughts of the Day
Jokes are fun
they make me laugh
and I like laughing
I'm so tired
...
Ahhhhh
Sleep Now
03/31/2025
Quit Hitting Yourself
Now I walk in my own old shoes
without socks to better feel
what I have been
Looking back
I have been big and I have been small
Fears devoured only to be spit out again
but less each time
passes faster than it used to...
and at a faster rate
Four times my age I'll be 92
Will I still wear a size 8.5 shoe?
If only we could see forward
like we can see back,
but even back is fuzzy
Breathe
You are of flesh and blood
You are doing fine, great even
Remember to smell the mustard gas and roses
and tie your shoes while you're at it
P.S. This marks 1 year of daily poetry
03/30/2025
So Long "So Long"
It's a strange thing
to know you will miss something
before it's gone
Maybe it's not so odd
I guess it's fear
Fear of change
Fear of loss
Fear of isolation
I know where I stand
and I know where I am going
and I know not everyone I care about
will be there
It makes me sad
I am hopeful
but I am sad
03/29/2025
Ode to Refried Beans
I'll never have refried beans again
Turns out they are made of pigs
Just like gummy bears
I'm going to miss refried beans
They are the perfect side to a burrito
I used to always mix them with the greens
and use the chips to create my own little
leftover snack
Not anymore
Goodbye refried beans
03/28/2025
Decision Making
There's often no rush
so why force a snap decision
There's always tomorrow
It's okay not to act
when you don't know the full story
When there is a time
never hesitate
but make the best decision you can
Otherwise you'll make things more painful
for everyone involved
03/27/2025
The Beginning of the End
All things come to an end
Some slow some fast
But in the end they all end
I can't tell if it's better
when it's all of a sudden, unexpected
or when it's first a mile away and you inch towards it
a few feet a day
It can be good when a thing ends,
even if you don't want it to
Because when
03/26/2025
Blind Writing
It's dark outside
so I can't see what
I am writing
It's amazing what
people can do without their senses
The blind can see through touch
The deaf can speak with their hands
It's amazing
we live in a fantastic world
I am always
amazed
P.S. So I wrote this in the dark, literally. My handwriting wasn't so bad. My creative expression... lacking
03/25/2025
I'm Working Late cause I'm a...
Working hard and working late
pair together like lady and the tramp
They're just meant to be
Every second accounted for
every breath in agony
but sometimes that's just how it is
so I don't mind
It's nice too
makes you tired
which make it easier to sleep
Sure it steals away your freetime
but you can still squeeze it in
after all I'm full of energy
Pitter Patter
03/24/2025
Act first, Win first
Every experience has led me to believe that
fortune favors the brave
The first to act may be the first to fail
but also the first to lean
and those with knowledge succeed
But what of observing
those who act first and take the lesson without the pain?
A noble pursuit but only if the first taker fails
03/23/2025
Others Struggles
Sometimes there are things that happen
that cause a permanent change
Sometimes they are witnessed
I don't know the extent of the change
I just know somethings must have
Because I know it would have changed me
and seeing it alone has changed me
I only have half the strength and half the story
03/22/2025
Perpetual Motion
Here we are again
forward in time
not space
again with nothing
on my mind
except going through the motion
That's okay
not every day's
a holiday
and not every word has to land true
or rhyme
It's just a game
03/21/2025
Waiting Upwards
Being devoid of inspiration
is not an unfamiliar thing
It's hard to always be on
we are flesh and blood
not a river that eternally
flows
and even those run dry
Don't worry it will
come just sit and wait
Divine intervention always come to those who wait
I think that's where the mind goes when it's bored
Up
03/20/2025
Vroom
It's go time
No time for slow time
Say yes not no time
All wheels on the floor time
The end is near
but the summit still stands tall
over the hill
over yonder
Grab your ass
Dig you feet in the grass
and do your little funny dance
It's game day now
and I just finished playing 52 card pick up
P.S. I guess I was feeling motivated...
03/19/2025
Mindless Walk
I have been drifting though
the hazy spring air
looking for a place to plop down
and ponder
I think I've found it
where it all began,
it is the season of renewal
after all
Now all I've got to do now
is to think, of what I haven't a clue
but it will come and go as most things do
except scars
I am warm, at ease, and happy
03/18/2025
Oops
I did it again
forgetful minds
do forgetful things
c'est la vie
03/17/2025
Saucony Jazz Court
I count my seconds like hours
my days like dimes
I walk with two feet
I sway from side to side
The Sun goes up
The Sun comes down
I waltz the streets
like I own the town
I'm not a wanderer
I'm just me
and I'm not quite sure
where I am supposed to be
My new shoes are shiny
and O' so white
they even reflect the dim street light
Goodnight Moon Goodnight Stars
as I bike away dodging the cars
03/16/2025
North Carolina
Back down South
where the Bradford pears
aromate the skies
and pollen sticks to every surface
creating a yellow slurry with the humidity
Gas is cheap. Pork is everywhere
and Jesus is on every corner
People talk funny and there are more shades of them
than in the far North
Everyone says hello and wave back atcha
It ain't perfect but it is home
03/15/2025
A Letter
I've written so many letters in my mind
Thank you notes, get well soons, apologies, love letters
I seldom put ink to paper but I like to think
that their message is received even though I know
they are not
I think they do change how I act
I carry myself like I do in these letters
In the end I think it would be better if I wrote those letters
I should try
03/14/2025
Sky
The Sky tells a story of the day
Oranges and reds bookend the days
Intertwined by a gradient of blue
The weather shows the sky's emotions
its grays, rains, white snows, shining stars
We ought to spend more time looking at the Sky
03/13/2025
Agency with Others
Although I can only see
though my own eyes
and live my own life
not everything I do is what
I want to do
Compromise
Scratch my back and I'll scratch yours
Even if you don't I'll be fine
I am just here for a good time
Every moment is a decision
and reaction or action or inaction
Is all a choice
03/12/2025
Packed Bag
Everything's all squared away
tucked neatly in place
but soon that will end
The duffle shuffle and the climb will dirty and muck everything up
Leaving me to put humpty dumpty back together again
I'll cover the cracks with white nail polish but it won't be the same again
Till the warm end blows
03/11/2025
Last Step of the Wind Up Toy
The night's winding down
and the vinyl is skipping with a broken
rap-pap-pap
of an old man's heart
The fire is dimming along with the voices
of those around me
It's alright
It's time for night
Good Night
03/10/2025
In the Warmth Again
I can feel my toes again
and my face is no longer covered in ice
but it feels like something is missing
The pain
The struggle
I walk unhindered by tennis racket shoes
without worry of sweat freezing me
It's easy now which is nice
but I guess that's nice too
But it was good to survive
03/09/2025
On Top
It seems like the Creator of the Universe
hates this place
It is cold and the clouds run away so fast
Barley anything is alive
Save the trees
a few birds
and me
But its is also
Staggeringly Beautiful
It is surreal
03/08/2025
Mild Hypothermia
It's cold and my pen will barely write
but I am here
The walk was nice
the tent was not
but fret did we did not
I'll do it again
tomorrow and the day after that
That's all now
I'm cold
03/07/2025
North Carolina to New Hampshire
I've been on the road
longer than the Sun's been shinin'
It ain't so bad as flying
but it ain't so pleasant either
I've seen cities
I've been to and lived in before
and passed places I've never been
It's the journey before the climb
03/06/2025
Personal Morality
Words like right and wrong
really have no firm meaning
once spoken aloud
Their notions and nuisances, justifications
are crystal in the mind
but shatter once they enter another
It's a shame really
because there seems to be
some universal principles out there
But the second these personal definitions
misalign
things go awry
03/05/2025
Flight
I can hear the drums from across the river
They are calling my name
but they will not catch me
because I am light on my feet,
have a full stomach and can climb
I don't know where I am running to
but they won't find me
I'm sure of it
I don't have long to write
so I'll leave you with one thing
Don't Die Wondering
03/04/2025
Layers
Sunshine heats the skies
from dawn to dusk
raising the temperature two fold
over the day
This makes it near to impossible to put on
the appropriate amount of cotton and plastic
to keep the skin both cool and hot
If only there was some way
Layers
03/03/2025
Sentimental for Rocks
Somethings become sentimental
and it is strange which ones do
Sometimes it's a rock picked up
on a melancholy walk
or a little toy from a thing of candy
but they stick
They stick because they have a story
like everything has a story
Everything became a thing from another thing
and has been flung around the Universe since the beginning of Time
That's something worth being sentimental about
03/02/2025
The Bottom
The bottom is built first
but is often unseen
Our cloud cutting towers
start deep below
Our ancestors now make up
the soil on which we stand
and when the tides rise
our civilization will succumb to the depths
I wonder what would happen if we brought the bottom alongside the top
To see how differnt they really are
To see in what ways things have changed
If the bottom can hold up all that's above it
it must be made of the surest stuff
I hope
P.S. This poem will soon be buried at the bottom of some email and at the bottom of this webpage but for those who are in the here and now it will be at the top. One day I'll come back and resurface this little poem. See how it stands. To see how I've grown. Okay now. Bye Bye :)