Volume III is hanging out here, it stretches from 03/01/2025 to 08/29/2025. Have fun spelunking through the pink coral hiding in my skull :) 

08/29/2025

The sliver of light between the eyelids

Closed eyes see nothing

and everything

Visions can dance and sing

or darkness overwhelms

It's a choice

To see the light in the darkness

To focus on the stars not the space

There are times when it is debilitating

a breaking point

Hold fast to the pinhole of light

let it fuel the furnace of your Soul

Become

AN UNWAVERING BEAM
OF

LIGHT

08/28/2025

The Ganks

It has been awhile

since I have slept with the trees and bees

but it still feels right

It is still warm

a good 90 degrees F warmer

than my last outing

I love the sounds of the night

the bugs, birds, critters

they all sing for me

I digress and now I rest

I'll see the Sun tomorrow

08/27/2025

Reaching for Light

The World has never been bigger

and although I am small

I am something

Whatever I want to be

I don't know what that is yet

but I'll find my way

Life always finds a way

There is hope it is just hard to find sometimes

Hope by nature is ever present

waiting to be grasped

I will grasp the light

08/26/2025

What I Wear

White shoes, flower socks

Black Pants, Brown Belt

Checkered Button Up, Brown Leather Jacket

Unzipped

Sunglasses, Black, that just

cover the eyes

A green watch that only tells time

A look distinctive, I think

for it is my own

Yet none of the garments

save the shoes, glasses, and belt

are my own

The rest from another

But me to put them together

I'm not sure what'd you call it

the style that is

I'm not sure if I ever cared

I, as always, am just doing me

08/25/2025

The collapse of the card pyramid

I watch the cards as they fall

They fold upon themselves

hazardously

knowing no one will be there to put them back in place

The cards, they are graceful

They knock and fly

like wild geese

and in all of us

there's a soft spot

that just wants to run and be free

But free from what?

Each other? Ourselves?

I'm not much sure wat any of it means anymore

08/24/2025

Fictional Birds

Oh how the nightwing goes through the dark sky

From tree to tree

slanking, never seen

Not raven, nor crow

something else

yet the same jet

black

Nightwings seldom flap,

rather they glide and climb from perch to perch

Nobody knows what they hunt for

but they look at a passersby with red eyes

08/23/2025

Love of Stories

Journeys start, end, are remembered

then forgotten

but they happen

which is a beautiful thing

because a journey is a story

and a story is everything

What fascinates me most about stories

is that we share them

A story allows one to learn

and be something they are not

without chewing on some poisonous berry themselves

Stories save lives and making them makes life worth living

08/22/2025

Unhidden Legs

These days I can feel every sinew of my legs

They are crying

I don't listen

I still pedal

I still run

I still dance

And my legs carry me into tomorrow

throughout today

where I get to learn about the days story

Today I learned a bit about myself

and a bit about friends

new and newer

Today was a good day

08/21/2025

Unknown

My eyes protect me from what I see

Their shields protect them from the small dangers

I am just writing nonsense

I have found myself

Afraid

Afraid of my solitude

and what to do with all this life I have

I know I will figure it out

and maybe I'm looking at this all wrong

I'll manage

08/20/2025

Energetic

I want to run

I want to ride

I want to climb

I want to burn so bright

Movement is awesome

and I enjoy its beauty

08/19/2025

Strangers

We are all strangers in the night

Blinded by darkness

Only seeing by twilight

into eachothers eyes

only our own reflection

and what we want to see

We are all strangers to ourselves

constantly changing

Our memories and state of mind

Not everything I know is true

If we could look at others the same way we looked at ourselves

maybe we would not be in this mess

Maybe

08/18/2025

Rehoboth

Down range in marsh

a flowering tree with white petals fluttered

Except the tree wasn't flowering

No the barren tree was covered in birds and it was beautiful

Ever shifting every flying in circles around the tree

They dance

They sing

They are white

They are flowers

08/17/2025

Accidental 14 Mile Run(PR)

On the water

by the fort whose flag was still there

Under a tree

sits a bench and me

I look out to sea and see

the soft waves billowing

into the seawall

and a gap in a large bridge

I feel the breeze and wick off the salty sweat

in my eyes

It's the life

and this is my favorite spot in Baltimore

08/16/2025

Who Knows

And everyday time marches forward

Doves cry out coos of harmony

and combines swallow fields like hoovers

I have long conceded that understanding this World

is beyond me

All I can do is feel

Now I am restless

Squandered half my day

I don't find it particularly relaxing

to piss away my life

I could've danced or sung

or played in the Sun some more

but I retired in isolation

with sleep my only consolation

I think I need more friends

08/15/2025

Talking but not Asking the Right Questions

I tend to talk a lot

then a little

I can't tell if it's good or bad

and I used to not worry but sometimes I do

I've been told I am more of a transmitter

than a receiver

that's strong

Life goes on

I love life and at times

Life loves me too

and that's... well

that's everything

08/14/2025

Whatcha gonna do when they come for you?

I will end up on the wooden ship

at the end of time

or will I cease to be before?

I do not know

but I fear 

what we are capable of

and the direction we point our cannons

I just want to share a meal with the world

Not discriminate and dominate

There's enough food and seats for us all

08/13/2025

Musing

Everybody looks up to somebody

but what of God?

Who or what could be aspired to?

God knows

08/12/2025

First Date

One strike and I'm out

but I am free

and I got an at bat

I didn't even see the pitch and I swung and missed

but I honestly didn't want to pay this game

At least not with this pitcher

I'll play again

Don't worry

08/11/2025

Action

No one has ever gone forward without taking 

a step

a step towards what they desire and away from what they fear

into a fear they do not know

Little or large, everything started somewhere

You, me, honey crisp apple trees

This Universe and everything in it

Began

Think not of what there is to lose

but instead what there is to gain

Go. March. Go!

08/10/2025

Needle and the Damage Done

Everyone has seen the needle and the damage done

Yet we drink and smoke till everything is numb

and pretend its effects are limited to One

Erratic cars under night stars

barrel down the avenue

another dollar is puffed away instead of stowed away for tomorrow

All to forget about the best thing we have

Life

Not to say don't have any fun 

Rather just know whatever your doing

it is not just to yourself

08/09/2025

The Day will Come

One day the bells will ring

and all will hear their toll

will point their heads and listen

not to the chime

but each other

Unity is power

Unity comes from community

Which can't happen without community

so we must all listen

to the beating hearts of our brothers and sisters

They beat just like yours

Dance to the beat

let the hearts become

the Drums of Liberation

Dance and become powerful

08/08/2025

Raleigh

Well it ain't home anymore

which is strange

but the people aren't much different

but I am

I am tired. Goodnight

08/07/2025

Birds and Me

Birds fly South for Winter

I fly North

Birds fly North for the Summer

I fly South

08/06/2025

Wicked Things

Disease is cruel because it is often random and not preventable

Famine is evil because today it is man made

Why do we do such acts when we know their harm?

I'm not even sure if I'd like to know

08/05/2025

Research

Research

It ain't fast and failure is just part of the job

and I often forget that

because now it's my job

not for University

It's okay as long as you learn

and learn and try new things I shall

because that's what I like to do

Shed away this insecure nonsense

I am doing alright

08/04/2025

Welcome New Soul

Everyday is paradise

here on planet Earth

because everyday is a new Soul

joins the fold

Life is an amazing thing

so full of senses and stories

highs and lows

Stories make us human

and more Souls mean more stories

Stories, like Souls

last forever

They imprint on the Universe

as cosmic etchings

Same with Souls and their nightly dance

Today is a good day

08/03/2025

On Ovals

Ovals are a peculiar shape

unlike their brother circle

they've been squashed

the rectangle of circles

Not many things are ovals.

They're just kind of awkward

Not to say they are bad 

just askew

The most famous oval is in Washington, DC

It's in a White House

and an orange takes phone calls in it

Ovals sure are strange

08/02/2025

The End of Public Media

Big Bird will never make it to Mars

because the orange groves have taken root at PBS

These oranges are not sweet

they are more weed than fruit

and they suck down the nutrients 

to only enlarge their ugly selves

What's next or rather

What's left

How much more damage can be done

to Science and Education

and to what End

Ayn Rand is dancing in her grave

because the world might get to witness

the Hell of Atlas Shrugged

08/01/2025

The Hidden Night Sky

I am sitting on top of my rowhouse roof

listening and seeing sounds and sights

The red and white roar of sirens

The blinking green whirling helicopters

City lights, headlights, taillights

None of which are pointed at me

I am quiet I am dim

I do not add to the noise

But I do burn bright

just not in visual light

My Soul dances across the Stars

like Northern Lights

and do-si-dos with the other creatures of the night

Colours racing, streaking in spirals

every night

They never tire and they never leave

even after you're gone

My Soul is the green and yellow of ginkgo trees

and loves to soar in circles forever cascading forward

My Soul is bright

and my Soul is restless

My Soul is fueled by undying Hope

My Soul may get lost

but my Soul is sound

and knows where to go

without knowing where it's going

The clock tower is ringing

my Soul will continue to play

but my body will exit the night

and retire

Building People

Strangers are disassembled building blocks

To turn a stranger into a person

you must first go through a few steps

First take the blocks and sketch out their silhouette

Don't worry about being perfect, no one is

Most people never notice the slight right curve of my nose

Then adorn a name plate and affix it somewhere prominent

So you don't forget,

maybe even come up with a trick like

Laube, like a hotel Lobby

Now here comes the hard part

building a mock up of their Soul

Start by asking question

What questions don't matter so much as lost as you listen

and ask better questions later

Be careful and diligent with this step and avoid building to narrowly and monochromatically

You're trying to build a human not a character

As time goes on pour in memories, thoughts, feeling

Nothing is final

People always change

and unpredictably too

There you have it

a stranger no more

hold fast and make another

There's billions of them waiting to be built 

07/31/2025

The Dark Side of The Moon

Most say you are mysterious dark side

since you never show your face

but I know

You are too proud of your war torn exterior

that has shielded us earthlings so long

Like the Statue of Liberty

stoic and looking towards the abyss

not with a smile

but nor a frown

Dark side of the Moon

you must have the most beautiful view of the cosmos

and all to yourself

I'd say see you around but you're tidally locked away

so I'll just say ciao

07/30/2025

The Bright Side of The Moon

Oh how bright you are on a dark summer night

Hanging low on the horizon

smiling down on a pale blue dot

Bright side you capture our sours

from floating deep into space

and throw our imagination of expansion

into overdrive

When I see you so full

I know it will be a good day

for today you don't feel so far away

Goodnight old man in the sky

07/29/2025

Alone Again

Well I have it all

a roof above my head

enough food to eat

meaningful work

exciting hobbies

but no one to share it with

no one to recount the day

with bliss on every syllable

It will come they say

even I am losing hope

When I close my eyes I see nothing but black

and I am having a hard time remembering what this is all about

I'll figure it out

I always do

It's just hard now and now is fleeting

07/28/2025

The dominance of Circles

Oh how the days keep on coming

and they keep on going

It's a merry go round right round

All these things are circles

days, life & death, Dante's Heaven and Hell

All circles

But what's so special about a circle being cyclical?

Can't any closed shape be cyclical?

Why the circles?

Because it does it the best,

and we life on a circle after all

07/27/2025

On Ignition

Putting pen to paper

is the hardest part of writing

starting

Everything that happens after

that can be refined

like cane into sugar

Imagined Worlds

are born raised, killed, and forgotten

before their creator etches their existence down on some sheet

A story being told does more good than no tale at all

and the first thing to do is do

07/26/2025

Coloured Organs

Yellow eyes hunger for anything that will come their way

Red hearts will bleed over any tragedy, no matter how small

Blue toes will trudge onwards without hesitation

nor sensation

Green ears will listen to everything as though the sounds have never been heard before

and gray brains will think think think

till there nothing worth thinking about anymore

07/25/2025

How

How did I get so lucky

to call strangers friends

How many lost souls wander around this fish bowl

and how few get to shine so bright

How wonderful life can be

How tragic we allow others to suffer

How come?

How does the World keep spinning?

and how will it know when to stop?

How disorganized can prose be

and still be considered a poem?

How would I know?

How explains all this but how can how?

07/24/2025

Why

Why do we ask so many questions

and why do we worry why the sky is blue?

Why married to because fill the satisfaction of the curious youth

Wondering why will get you by and will bring you fortune till you die

Buy why oh why do we why?

07/23/2025

When

When did it all begin?

When did nothing become something?

The Universe was at stop

then it's heartbeat start

and now we sit around wondering

when the cosmic soup was first created

and when it's going to be all slurped up

When us bipedal featherless beings figure it out,

then...?

When will that ever bring humanity peace?

When will peace be given a chance?

You can ask when till Hell freezes over

but we won't know till it happens

07/22/2025

Masters of Men

You Masters of Men stand on nothing

but plundered treasures of the Every Man

Despite your best efforts

I know enough to know

that you bleed just like the rest of us

And if it bleeds it can die

Distract us, turn us on each other

like the razor blade adorned cocks you think we are

and pray our necks don't stick out towards you

Keep up your debauchery

and hold tight to your bible

We know the true struggle

We followed the money

It's not Black, White, Jew, Muslim

No it has be told long ago

Power and the Powerless

and don't worry the revolution marches near

so clinch to your coin purse

and make a suit of armour out of nickels and dimes

because when the lead starts flying

people will die

Where

Where did the time go?

There?

Under where?

No, not underwear!

Under there!

Oh that's the spot

Where everything is

exactly where it is

To every place a where

and every where a place

07/21/2025

What

What thing am I

Whatcha lookin at

some sorta grammatical object?

What finds itself everywhere on its search for answers

What is a hotdog?

So common to American life we don't even question it

No one would know

What's for dinner or 

What's new without using

What's up

What's a chameleon

it can even ask what's your name

07/20/2025

Who

Who?

Not the sound of the owl

but the query of man trying to identify another

Who is often accusatory

but finds itself a curious musing as well

Who is replied to with a name

at ugly times in history

a number

Who can replace he or she or they

after their presence is know

Who is a useful question

07/19/2025

Truffles

The only use I have for swine is for them to dig up truffles form natures gold mine

07/18/2025

Writing in the Dark

I've been on the road my whole life

I just didn't know it

07/17/2025

Cloud Pondering

Do the clouds look at us like we look at them?

Do they wonder when we will rain tears or imagine shapes our bodies resemble?

How would the clouds see?

Do they have eyes or can they just sense or maybe they aren't fantastical beings we personify?

If clouds do look down at us

I hope they like what they see because our lives are much longer than those dust beings

so it's all that they got

07/16/2025

Grappling with Adulthood

Yesterday's tomorrow sure feels like today

but different surely from Tomorrow's yesterday

The past melds slowly into the future

when there's nothing on the horizon

except the same old blue sky

It seems like time passes but nothing changes

except the dollars in the bank and the wrinkling on the skin

So this is what's on the other side

Endless opportunity with the only goals your own

What to do?

07/15/2025

Lost in the Jungle

Memory these days

is covered in a green haze

A jungle so dense light seldom passes through

Chainsaws and axes used to constantly hedge the periphery 

but now there's no stress, no drive

The jungle is left untamed and is running rampant

Over the empty fields of tomorrow

Try to out run it if you can before you forget

why you are running at all

07/14/2025

Rain Again

Rain seems more constant

now than ever

and with the rain, rest

Something about the changing of the weather strikes eyes with dust

and hazes the mind till slumber

Sunshine peaks though every now and then

but everything is gray

One day it may start raining and never stop and all who wake will dive into a long sleep

07/13/2025

I broke a thing

Bumbling though novice

is as common as yellow stripes on bees

and can leave you with two sensations

laughter or disappointment

I sure think it's best to gaff at mis-happenings

It's the first go around don'tcha know

Sure it's easy to apologize

but if you know everything

what would be the point of all this anyhow

07/12/2025

Neighbor, you and me are not all that different

Across the Universe life runs so thin

but here

on Earth

it is bountiful

Rarer, I suppose is this so called Sentience

yet here

on Earth

we house Billions

It's a remarkable thing

nothing short of a miracle

Cosmically then

those who are physically closest to me

must be the most similar thing to me in the vast Universe

both chemically and by happenstance

for we are alive, thinking, in the same place, and at the same time

Love them or Hate them we are not all that different

07/11/2025

4 Way Light

There's something transactional 

about an intersection

You give your time

it returns "safe passage"

You pour out exhaust

Your breathe in another's

It's a dance of petroleum and iridescent

either gone in a flash or a grueling reminder of time

07/10/2025

Clouds on retreat

Hissing concrete, sun kissed sidewalks signify

that rain has done its worst and is now packing up

to scurry home

Home amongst the seas and stars

Home amongst the canopies

People sing songs to scare clouds away and more to bring them back

as if there could be some melodic equilibrium that could grow crops

but not get sweaters soggy

The World would surely be better off with rains continued presence

than its eternal absence

but that's just my 2 cents

07/09/2025

Rained In

These Summer storms keep me at bay

They terrifying lighting and sudden

down pours

coat the dry city in a fresh coat of H2O

Sure you can run in the rain

but you can't tell me people love taking a soaked cotton shirt off their body

Oh how it stick and suck to ya like a barnacle

The rain is a reason to rest

but resting sure is boring

07/08/2025

Writing Narratives is Wicked hard, This "Poetry" is much easier, although I am more practiced. Time will tell

Inspiration comes in waves

Labor is consistent

Beautiful things happen when they peak together

Otherwise things are just done

I've got an idea, got to run!

07/07/2025

I said something I regret

My loose lips seldom get me into trouble

but they do cause personal anguish

Why on God's green Earth did I say that?

It's too late now

The only thing left to do is apologize

and change

Regret until I forget

then do it all again

Every days a snake eating its own tail

until you run out of gas and fall face first into the grass

07/06/2025

Favorite Bench in Baltimore

There are many benches

each like a TV station

You sit in them and watch a window into the World

Everyone has a favorite bench

It's a good idea to go bench surfing till you find your own

Sailboats rip roaring and the cool splash of waves

balance out the bright Sun

That's what makes my shady bench feel surreal

07/05/2025

York, PA

Towns that were once great hold a collective memory of what once was

even if generations have past

They hold onto history to make taking the daily dose of reality more palatable

It is sad but natural

Nothing gold last

Time tarnishes all

07/04/2025

Love for Americans

There are times I've fallen in and out of love with America

but I have never faltered in my love for Americans

We are so independent

but at the end of the day

the good lot of us

can see past the whites of eachothers eyes

and see the Soul

We all want opportunity

We all want freedom

We all want rights

We all hold onto hope

I am proud to be an American

07/03/2025

The All Mighty American Dollar

You can talk all day and plot all night but the dollar always wins

for the dollar is power

Power to buy votes

Power to change laws

Power to kill

Power to decide who is born

Power to decide how much Power one can have

I'm not sure how politicians sleep

It can't be well even on their eagle down comforters

07/02/2025

I made a promise to Elie Wiesel that I would never been indifferent(I never met the man)

All this politics is making me not care

which I guess is the objective of those fat cats

They breed indifference

But I cannot be indifferent

I will think

I will act

I will not let myself or others go down without a fight

I know the good we are capable of

07/01/2025

Idols

I'm not sure if Kurt Vonnegut and Toni Morrison ever met

but I would have loved to have seen them talk

The stories they would tell

I hope that one day

I will be able to tell a story a tenth as well as they do

I dream of being a novelist

This has been my practice

06/30/2025

The Rear End of the Statue of Liberty faces the Greatest City on Earth

I understand more now why Lady Liberty looks out to Sea

I believe she hopes for better things over yonder and puts her back on a seeming lost cause

Now I don't know how she can keep a stoic face

during the good and the bad

Maybe it's been all bad

I pray we can all sleep well

I'm not sure what It means to be an American anymore

06/29/2025

Summer Cold

I cannot remember the last time I've been sick

especially in the Summer

I heard only fools get sick in the Summer

So I guess my degrees are wearing off

It's nice though to rest

I just worry I will become idle

You're supposed to drive fast cars fast

06/28/2025

I have a really hard time spelling tomorrow

The Sun will come

Again Again

Tomorrow and every day hence

no matter where the Sun rises

Over the peaks, in the valley

fields golden, skin baked

P.S. Pretty sure I gave up on this one.

06/27/2025

Is a broken record right twice a day?

I tell people the same stories about myself

and for some reason think that they should view me as something different then those stories

I chirp the same lines

on and on

and expect novelty

of course it neve comes

I wish I could start again

something

Oh well

06/26/2025

Spicy Fingers

Always wash your hands after handling habaneros

If you don't, don't touch your eyes

and for Pete's sake don't starch your balls

It hurts

06/25/2025

Wyman House

I will probably never know

what happened to the man

who sat himself over that tall balcony ledge

He was naked and it was hot

and he was there when I left of work

and still there when I got back

I had talked to a lady on the street in the morning

She had a pretty name that started with an L

I can't remember what it was

She said she had lost 8 people since October

and that the man must have missed his medication

She said this was awful

I agreed

I told her of my stories of suicide,

she hers

But I was hopeful, for there was still hope to be had

because he was alive

shouting and alive

It's dark now. Nearly midnight

and the firetrucks and EMS that have been here all day

have rolled out

I could go outside and ask around

to find out his fate

but I'd rather just hope

that he's alive and in good company

We are not all that different for that man upstairs

I wish there was some way I could carry his load

Share our suffering so they become diluted

It's wicked all this pain can build up in one Soul

I think we'd all heal if we all felt the same pain

I don't think we'd kill each other

Imagine the pain of thousands of deaths from an Atomic Bomb

I wish I could help

I hope he's alive or in Heaven

06/24/2025
Master of None

I've never really mastered anything

not cycling, nor climbing, and not poetry either

I have a piece of paper that says I've mastered mechanical engineering but we know that's not so

It's strange

I've been around those who are experts but I've never picked it up myself

Time will tell

06/23/2025

It's hard to write a title to something so patchwork and disjointed

The last time I walked down this road my eyes faced South and my frame felt small

Now I stand proud and look up at the birds that always chirped and to the Sun who burns forever more

The World seldom changes, at least compared to me and what I see

To think that today is someone's best and another's worst always fascinates me

Most of us are never those chanced two and we all get by

06/22/2025

Everyone Deserves a Home

Everyone went home

Some close others far

but everyone made their way back

even those going somewhere new

Home follows like a shadow

creeps up on you like sharks and minnows

and sticks to ya like gumballs

Homes grow, they change

shrink too

Everyone deserves one

Everyone deserves to be safe and loved

No matter who they are or what they did

Nothing is too late

and everyone deserves a home

06/21/2025

The Book Wedding

There is no joy so pure

as to see your friend marry

It's better than the burst of flavor

that comes from really enjoying a grape

It's a feeling of hope solidifying

becoming true

A sign of better things to come

A moment where everyone can come together

and celebrate the best thing we Humans do

Love

Joe and Sarah Book

Godspeed!

I Love you both!

P.S. This was the first wedding I went to. It was beautiful. It was really nice to meet the people that made my friend the man he is now. I am beyond honored to be numbered amongst them! Got to meet some really cool people from Atlanta too!

06/20/2025

Driving to a Wedding

For a close friend there is no distance too far

no cost to high

nor inconvenient too great

that would prevent me from showing up in crisis or celebration

Today I am celebrating

and every mile and minute that passed as I navigated myself to Whitsett, NC

my smile grew

Two beautiful souls will be married tomorrow

That is something we can all celebrate

06/19/2025

Mental Whiplash

I am not sure if I am alone

in this but whenever I am happy for too long

something will come along and collapse

my satisfaction and plunge it low

Maybe I just have bad chemistry in my brain

Part of me I think likes to be melancholy. Some left, right hemisphere stuff

Let me sleep it off

Sleep often helps

06/18/2025

Dog Days

The days go by smoothly

for I am stress free

Sure I've got things to do

but they are all for me

I rest easy every night

I shed only tears of job

There is a calm in my life

and I am holding fast

It will pass as all things do

but for now I am happy

and that's a good thing

06/17/2025

Bad Hair Day

Sometime between dusk and dawn

the fur on my head goes on a wander

North past the scalp

East and West perpendicular to the ears

and South down my forehead

Most of the travelers find their way home in the dark

others miss roll call and get caught mid orbit

on the ends of their tethers

Depending on the severity of their crime

a firm hand of justice may pat them down

The worst offends get waterboarded

then beat into submission by comb

It's rim but at least they live

long lives before the trim

06/16/2025

On Windows

Windows make the inside feel like the outside

Its is nice It is nice

The Sun the Sun

It's rays make me smile

Every room should have a window

06/15/2025

Video Killed the Radio Star

Mono to stereo to surround sound

but our ears stayed the same

Tube to plasma to LCD

but our eyes stayed the same

Joysticks to remote controlers to virtual reality

but our hands stayed the same

Our toys change but we stay the same

That same void haunts us

Time

and how we spend it

must be the principal concern of humanity

I think the good lot of us

would watch the Earth's flame flicker out if we didn't have to worry about starving and all that

Again, maybe not... We have each other too.

06/14/2025

Funny Words

Some words are just plain fun to say

Sushi, Shawarma, Penelope

They tickle the tongue and warm the vocal cords

Have fun with words and how you say them

It's your world

06/13/2025

State Station to Owings Mills

It was quiet

or rather no one talked

on the metro

Everyone was in their own World

and in their worlds they were alone

it was mundane

Just a heavy machine that moves people

I'd agree with that sentiment, but it was my first time on this ride

and I'd brought my own wheel along

The station announcements were opposite but we all go to where we were gong

Sure it's slow but it's really time back just to be

06/12/2025

I guess I am happy with my legs??

Legs anchor the body to the Earth

They make us move

Run, jump, swim, cycle

They are long and powerful

A healthy leg can accomplish anything its owner please

They are dependable

After exercise they may scream

but they are growing

like rings of an Oak

Sturdy

They can struggle to listen when you've put a few drinks down

but they do their best to keep your face above your shoulders

Legs are awesome

06/11/2025

Our Leader is a Thug, if Hitler was a woman Trump would probably sniff his panties

Dreams are of many things

Romance, Fantasy, Memory

American Dreams are of opportunity

Life, Liberty, Pursuit of Happiness

Dreams come from good rest

not unrest

So when the President believes that he can snatch anyone off the street and send them who knows where without even asking if they're a citizen

How can American's dream?

Dusk is here

This is an American Nightmare

and I fear what horrors we can come up with

06/10/2025

This is like a salad of peanuts and raisins, bad

It's fire I don't know what else to call it

that's rampaging my mind

Restless, Raging, Passion, Devouring, Fear Inducing

I don't know if what I am doing is good

but I'm doing it

The mirror gives no solace it just stares back

with a same questions and the same answers

Clutter too is my mind

jumbled up like alphabet soup

I'm probably just excited

This surely isn't prose

Sorry dear reader I'll do better tomorrow

Scouts honour

P.S. Yeah I've got no clue what the hell I was talking about here. I like that mirror line. I can't decipher this shit.

06/09/2025

It ain't worth it to cry over spilled milk

I didn't write a poem last night

I guess I forgot 

Huh...

06/08/2025

9 to 5

Tomorrow will be like today

except it will mark something unseen

It will not feel all too new

after all I've trained for it my whole life

but something will end and something else will begin

Some fear and dread

think they'd be better off dead

Others view it as a means to an end

Opportunity, fortune, a civic obligation

I'd be lying if I didn't feel them all

But one thing is sure

This path is my own

and will be till the day I keel over

so whatever I do I want to make sure it does one thing at a minimum

Reduce Human Suffering

Now matter how, I will

06/07/2025

Must have been pretty lazy to write something this short

The air is sweet

the streets are full

everything is alive

and there's always something new

Welcome to Baltimore

06/06/2025

Baltimore Bike Party - May 2025

The faint smell of gasoline

and the roaring of wheeling motors

brings a smile to my wry face

Even I cannot deny the joy of dirt bikes

and bicycle wheelies

it is simply to pure

It's chaos, yes

Permitted to

Encouraged

It's freedom for a few hours

to act a fool on any road

Highway or high Hell

It's the Baltimore Bike Party

Grab a drink and ride

P.S. This reminded me what I like Baltimore

06/05/2025

Cycling Up Hills

Hills are painful but only in one direction

So never surrender

Make your way

Anyway you can

Then it will be alright

06/04/2025

Without Me

It all goes forward

with or without

society moves forward

but without individuals there nothing

So really the world can't go on

Unless a tree in the woods makes a sound

It will be different though

a little less salt in the water

but it will go on

And that's a good thing

Treasures should be shared

Anyhow the future is laden with gold

06/03/2025

Natural Colour Mixing

Yellow is the Sun

Blue is the Sky

Red is the Sunset

Yet yellow and blue don't make red

So how can that be?

Science?

I guess I understand

06/02/2025

Handing Art

Hanging your old art in a new place is therapeutic

New beginnings bring new fears

and no one to comfort you but yourself

Of course this new life was chosen

a side effect of decisions made long ago

and there is something calming about the past

Looking back is inherently regressive

but that doesn't make it wrong

After all Romans figured out concrete long before we did

No the past may always be behind but we can bring tis fruits into the present

By hanging old art on new walls

It serves no utility but even my mechanical mind can appreciate

colour and dreams

06/01/2025

Personal Decoration

There have been times when I have owned nails

Others when I had access to a hammer

fewer when I've had framed art

and only now walls I am allowed to hang them

I may not own this place

but for the next 14 months it's mine

And I'm doing things my way

05/31/2025

Space Seeds

The World is a flower

it budded from a cosmic seed

and fed on gravitational waves

and magnetic fields

Its teenage years, fire\y

and now it stands tall

ready to be pruned

Mankind help the shears

Now the natural beauty fades

Only extended by oceans of water

and Nitrogen fertilizer

Flower food

The aroma is going off

and being replaced by a noxious gas

Our World is wilting

Decomposing

To give foundation for the next

Flower

05/30/2025

New Dawn

Dawn comes every day

which means there is always a new dawn

but tomorrow will be different

there will be a new life in this world

and although that happens all the time

this one is special to me

I don't know his name

but I know his mother and father

quite alright

They are of the finest people I know

and will steward the boy

I am hopeful for the future

I am not a pious man

but I believe hope

is an unwavering light like that of a soul

Welcome new Light

05/29/2025

Cruel World

Disease is wicked

and if it were up to me

I'd get rid of it

05/28/2025

Octopus

The octopus is hungry now

so it must hunt

It slays out each limb

in every direction sensing for anything that bleeds

It finds a lead pours all its attention

then its satisfied

05/27/2025

American Roadways

It always amazes me how connected the world is

ever road connected together

such that I can leave my house in North Carolina

and land in Maryland

all without off-roading

and with luxuries of rest stops and gas stations

It's quite amazing what we have created

Deadly yes, Polluting as well

but it is surely something remarkable

05/26/2025

Mind Wandering

I hear the dogs barking

They demand my attention

Yet I give them none

I'm focused on my work

They always bark

trying to steal my time

As if I have time to give

and to the hounds nonetheless

Not I, I am doing me

Islands envy my solitude

When I close my eyes

I am able to drown out the sound

and wander

It is colorful and bright

and full of puppies

A Dream

05/25/2025

Story Telling

Everything has a story

every molecule, every atom

ever since that Creator of the Universe

Created

Setting everything in motion

For every motion there is a snapshot

a picture and a series of pictures

tells a story

Of like of death

so small and beyond large

The Universe holds ever story

that has been told, is told, and will be told

It is awesome 

05/24/2025

I guess I gave up

Back on the road again

back to the Old North State

Jesus signs and big old cars

Sunny skies

Eh this is no good

goodnight

05/23/2025

State of the World via the New York Times

Reading the news make the World seem like it's going to end

and if its all true it seems like the end of something

Education, immigration, innovation, globalization, cooperation, etc.

It's sad

Shitty really

I just hope everything will be alright

05/22/2025

The Colour of a Tomato

I saw a tomato today

it was sliced no more than a quarter inch thick

and it was a healthy red

But it was not as red as the crimson tomato I had in Ohio

I think of that tomato often

It was from some family garden

and it was the most red thing I've seen

They say you can;t describe colour in words but it was that tomato

The memory of its taste is fading but it will be the best tomato of my life

05/21/2025

People Time

Too much time with the same people makes me crazy

I guess that's where culture and language comes from

but it can drive you mad

At least it does to me

05/20/2025

Reflection on this daily ritual

I'm not sure why I'm so hellbent

on many things

but this things in particular

this daily log

I know it helps me

but there are times when it's just a motion

like brushing teeth

Abd what's a day anyways

twelve ante meridiem to twelve ante meridiem

or the hours you wake before you sleep

What if you nap?

Seems to me days are a spook

made up

05/19/2025

Can't sleep

I can't sleep

It sucks

send help

05/18/2025

On Water

I never really understood the appeal of the Ocean

I tolerate it for a few hours

then I get my fill

Same with a lake

although I don't mind paddling around as much

I used to spend so much time in water

Liked canned Costo chicken

except it was my choice

Back and forth

Probably why I never liked fluid mechanics

I'dve observed it too much

My hair is soft now

No more chlorine

05/17/2025

Rabbits in Hats

They say every rabbit wears a hat

and for each hat they wear they have a role

There's a firefighter rabbit

a doctor rabbit

and an astronaut rabbit too

Every rabbit has a hat

One day a tiny rabbit

who wore a teeny plumber hat

and this rabbit wanted to do more than pipes and water

This rabbit wanted to paint

But a rabbit can only wear one hat

for rabbits only have one head

So what's a rabbit to do?

Stack the hats? Wear one on each ear?

No that can't be. You must be able to wear multiple hats.

05/16/2025

Who knows

Are you drunk?

No way

I don't even know what that means

Anyhow if I was to drink

I wouldn't drive

The only thing I drank was water

If that counts then I'm waster and an alcoholic cause I can't live without the stuff

Could that Jesus fellow

control turning water into wine

or was it a Midas touch affair

If so he must have been a drunk

05/15/2025

Something I lost

I used to be nice

I used to hold the door open for every school bus

I still hold open doors

But I have wicked thoughts

and say wicked things

I have seen things

Lived through things

and have allowed them to corrupt

There are times I struggle to see light

It's there but my pupils are too small

Too long have I chilled my heart

and too frequent do I forget

to fan the warmth that still reminds

I'm trying

P.S. My housing boss got the boot

05/14/2025

Pantana's

Knack. hmm. Slot

The cue smacks the zebra ball in a decisive act

The ivory then rolls up to the next stripped victim

chambered it fired again bringing the ball to it's cradle

Behind the wooden stick stands a calm man

with neoprene gloves

that covers only the nook of the hand

He feels nothing but a small dopamine dose when the should strikes his ear

after each decisive act

05/13/2025

Do these come across as sarcastic like I intend them to be?

The boxes stack neatly in the square world

They say spheres are more efficient 

but we like to champers our edges

no fillets

Life's easier at ninety degrees, even 45 is too perverse

Because right angles are right

and if we all conform it works out

A bulging box will knock the whole system out of line

so grab your edge and make it square

Life's better in a box

05/12/2025

Something must have pissed me off

Open wide

It's time for your medicine

Don't be so stubborn

it's good for you

it keeps you docile and happy

You don't even need to chew or swallow

just open an account

All you needs a few pounds or dollars

to sure up your altruistic needs

and replace them with something better

Greed

Greed is good, equality is bad

We are what we are due to the materials we had

Buy some eggs, never grow

that's what makes the economy

Go Go Go

05/11/2025

Now What?

Now's the calm before the storm

of the rest of my life

Now's the time to plan

not to predict but to understand

oneself so when life goes astray

at least you'll know where you are

It's time to shed the excess

Remove everything not needed

to save space and time

I guess it's time to be an adult

05/10/2025

Credit where credits due(University of North Carolina Chapel Hill)

The people's college

I kinds scoffed

but then I listened

We are in a land

of the People for the People

a Public Democracy

and in the First Public University

the People come First

and I'm from North Carolina

so I guess I'm a Tar Heel too

05/09/2025

Trumpet Duet(Stephon and Vance)

Two horns sprung out of the ground

and behind their silver shells

stood a man each

both of which I can call true friends

They play together which reminded me of all the times

we had been together

but now one of us will be gone

me

Their tunes will continue to duet

mine a new solo

and I'm not even sure what instrument to play

But I always know I'll have their music to guide me

and one day all together, we'll make a symphony

05/08/2025

The Mind Killer

Munch. Munch. Munch.

The mind consumes itself with worry

About decisions made by a younger self

and their consequences

H.G. Well's dream has yet to come true

neither future nor past

so fear runs rampant

a mental weed

I just wish sometimes that my friends and loved ones wouldn't worry

and that I could make their problems disappear

P.S. I am glad I am alive today to have met everyone I have and to live in a time of medical advancement

05/07/2025

Terrible Handwriting

I've been too fortunate to learn some lessons

mainly when to listen

and when to ask questions

I'm conceited like everyone else

but only a non conceited man

can truly learn and connect

I wish I had more time to try again

P.S. I have no clue what this one's about. Maybe it was smart at the time?

05/06/2025

End of Contract

Let me move on already

Why do they keep me here just to waste away

I'm done you know

I've done my final acts

No more labor will be extracted from me

I guess I can pack the rest of the things up

Get all ready to go

it's a countdown after all

05/05/2025

Uniforms

Every stage of life seems to have a uniform

Nothing for newborns

Onesie for babies

Graphic Tees for children

Scandalous clothing for rebellious teens

Caps and Gowns for University

Pressed blue collars for work

White dresses for Weddings

Dad shoes and Mom jeans for parents

Knit sweaters when you grow old

and a nice suit for when they lower you down

I'm not sure why but we seem to like dressing up

and I'd be lying to say I didn't

They make you feel like your fitting in

conforming which isn't always bad

Traditions have brought us here

05/04/2025

On Creation

In Genesis they talk about creation

but for the life of me I couldn't tell you why this Universe was Created

I could tell you more about the how

but it's all just black shots in the dark with why

Not all creation is shrouded in mystery

Creation comes oft out of necessity

to solve a problem or fill a niche

like a bike shop or some new way to see cells

It makes me wonder more what the why is

for the Creator of the Universe

What problem was being solved?

A need for expression, after all what's a painter to do but paint

I'm not sure but I hope it is for something

But then again does it matter?

P.S. Maybe the Creator of the Universe just got lonely.

05/03/2025

Commencement

I was there too you know

The black sheep in a sea of red

It was hot under the Sun

but then again I've been warmer

I'm no stranger to the North Carolina Sun

They didn't say my name

because I am not a doctor

and my robes weren't so fancy

a flash of an altered future of PhD

passes through my mind

That is a path, not for me

No I am going North

to do more doing than thinking

and the doors I've not opened

are just closed not locked

Let's see where the road takes me

for now I'm just glad

05/02/2025

Short

Times running thin on my time in Raleigh

but I'm still here

05/01/2025

I guess there really is an end

I guess that's all she wrote

for this chapter

If you'd have blinked you'd have missed it

It was an interesting story

It had a clean beginning, middle, and end

The twists were exciting

and it's nice to know it doesn't end on a cliffhanger

We don't know what will remain unwritten

but I think I have a clue

There were some clear themes

and I suspect there is some foreshadowing

What I hope most is if our protagonist does not forget where he came from,

continues to hold humanity in his heart,

continues to learn with an open mind,

to acknowledge his luck,

and to share his life with family and friends

Godspeed

P.S. I know most people who read these just read the email. Which is cool but I never wanted that to be the experience. I'm going to miss this place alot. These have been the best 5 years of my life I have made so many friends and stories. Shoot I'm going to break my rule and use peoples names. Theres no particular order to this so don't take it personally. If I forget you here you must have misread it because in my heart I've written everyone. I Love my Mom. I got a new father in Fredric. I have new brothers in Luca and Adrien. I of cource have my little Jun Jun who showed me the world. I have my two Ryans, Abell and Dukes. Who could forget AC. I got an amazing mentor and friend in Joe. He is one of the few people in my life to really just listen. I listened too and I know we are better because of it. I'm crying now. It's hard not to cry. I'll still type. I made so many friends biking. I love biking. It's liberating. I really loved riding with Stephon. He always makes me smile. I will miss blocking him in at Jubala with Ben. I don't know where I'd be without Cam and Vance. I'm not sure if they know but I look up to both of them dearly. They have amazing wives too in Lauren and Sarah. They too listened to be and accept me for who I am. I was in love in college to once. I really did love Julie. I hope she is well. I had so many amazing professors. Kate, Kamper, Mazzolini, Ferguson, Buckner, I would list out every professor I had because they were all so insightful. I will miss being surrounded by giants. I really did like the pasta night crew. They are a good bunch when you sit down and look at 'em. We were all 'special' in our own ways. I am losing steam as my tears are running low. I guess my boy heart can't keep up the water works for too long cause it hurts too bad. I got to fly a plane last week with Joe H. That was insane. I got to go ice climbing with Scotty. I got to help change the world with MoBL in the little way I did in research. I really liked that lab. Full of good and passionate people. I met so many people though housing. Too many to name and even more to remember. I think I did a decent job. I hope so. It's hard to summarize 5 years in text. I guess that's why we have poems and stories. To write down the emotions that we can all share. I am so lucky to have a job after this. I am so lucky that I will get to work in the medical field and even luckier to work on a device that is used in cancer and drug discovery. I know I didn't just get married but I feel like the luckiest man alive. I have been so fortunate with those who are around me. I have loved them all. I know I can be a short and blunt son of a bitch but it's mainly just because I am afraid of showing my true emotion. I care a lot about people and worry too much if they care back. There's a lot of recency bias in all this text. I acknowledge that. but... I don't mind because this is what I am feeling in the now now. It's getting late now. And I can't miss my penultimate Jubala ride. I love you all. Peace.

- Jacob Laube 

04/30/2025

Unlucky Streak

It's always when you want it least do things go wrong

Goodnight

P.S. Resident with suicide ideation. Razor blade to the finger and chat with EMS. Late to train pick up. Work from home hell.

04/29/2025

Anthony's Song(again I think I've already used that title)

It's all in boxes now

Everything I own

Now I'm not much the materialist

but life's quite dull when everything's in boxes

and your left with just you need

I guess it's nice to just get by

Scrape the barrel

It gives you a better appreciation for 

how good you've got it

Kinda like camping

Where everything you need is on your back

except you

don't have to move the boxes but once or twice

Moving is an exciting hell

04/28/2025

Social Incompatibility

Not all gears mesh

Some are beveled others toothed

and no matter how you cut it

they won't work

Something has to go to make the system go

04/27/2025

The Poem I'm Expected to Write

I've been told these are supposed to rhyme

so I'll give it a go

After all it's about time

that I practice my pen and flow

There's a lot that goes into a poem:

Rhythm, Tone, Meter

Unlike my usual half-baked bro-hymn

those are just for fun, my personal theater

Don't let me forget about ample alliteration

oh, and a melancholic metaphor too

I hear you get points for complex dictation

and I want marks so hot they turn blue.

Structure, how could I forget structure?

You've got sonnet, haiku, that dumb acrostic

A different type for each of life's junctures

Sorry for the nip at the tail, satire's supposed to be caustic

Well I hope this satisfies those that doubt

that my rambling nonsense comes from a lout

P.S. I spent way too long on this... Maybe say 50 minutes. I was at Mitch's Tavern earlier today and someone asked me what I do besides "exercise" and I said I write poetry. I showed them this website and they asked me. "Aren't poems supposed to rhyme?" So here I am writing a poem that rhymes for all of you out there that likes rhyming I guess. Also if you can think of a better rhyme for poem than my slant rhyme bro hymn let me know. I'd also be lying if I told you I am in love with this line "Sorry for the nip at the tail, satire's supposed to be caustic" but I kinda pigeonholed myself there trying to rhyme with acrostic(which I think are "stupid" poems for kids).

04/26/2025

I've never had a 4.0 before so the thought of losing it in the 11th hour is eating at me

It's the little things

that cause the most distress

You can't make the coin flip to your favor

Sure it seems like a sure thing

but it isn't until it is

It's all like that dead or alive cat

and I'd sure be stressed out if my cat was

quantuarnaly dead or alive

So I've got to wait

The work has been done

Now I just have to wait for lift off

and bite my nails

Godspeed

04/25/2025

Jubala Jubala Jubala Jubala

100 miles

4 laps

of the best ride in Raleigh

2021 Spring I first went on Jubala

I don't remember it

But I do remember the people

Many of which who have left

Many too have stayed

Now I am leaving

for new opportunity

but with every opportunity there is a cost

Seldom will I make new Jubala memories

but to me

the ones I have already made

could sustain me for a lifetime

Thanks for riding with me

04/24/2025

I flew a plane

Come fly with me

Come fly Come fly Come fly

where we will watch the clouds run away

The black roofs below soak up the fleeting Sun

to keep the little people warm in the night sky

Icarus would have never dreamed of such a lavish ride

No one know what the day will hold until it's done

till then come fly

04/23/2025

Typical Anti-Automotive Sentiments

On the road again

driving from place to place

alone in my steel bubble

All I see is asphalt and people alone like me

I'd walk if I could

I'd surely bike

if only there was a way in sight

I'd take the bus if it was close

and wouldn't take so long just to drop me far away

So here I am 

alone with Uncle Sam

wondering where we went wrong

Am I so free if everything I do requires me to stop and fill my car with oil?

04/22/2025

So Long North Carolina State University, I loved you so

For the past five years I have spent

the majority of my life within a one mile radius

learning

and learn I have, some say I've mastered it(as if)

but I have lived a lot too. Laughing, Loving, Crying, Dying

These walls some call prison

I call home

I have made lifelong connections

I have come cloer to understanding what it means to live

I have survived

When I look back, even now before I've left

I know this time was special

and the most significant thing I've done thus far in life

Now I am ready to share what I have learned with the World

To make it a better place

And don't worry

We'll meet again

04/21/2025

Who even knows

Green leopards dance across the Sun

searching for forgotten pasts

when they owned the Night

Our feline friends

walk only on 3 feet, always

rising their front right paw

like some 1940s fascist but that's not so

They always seem to get a splinter and haven't growth thumbs

to pick 'em out yet

So they avoid true dark

so they don't step on twigs

so they can one day walk on four again

04/20/2025

Blatant Lyrical Plagiarism

I'm about to hit the road Jack

No ones going to screw with me

no more no more no more no more

I won't look back Jack

oh no oh no oh no I won't

I know what's right and I know what's wrong

and ain't no ones going to shake that away from me

I've walked around long enough to recognize

such wickedness and I am no executor 

so I'm gone

Gone home where the Sun doth shine

Home where my heart is

Home where my family is

waiting for me

04/19/2025

I think they call it gaslighting

Breathe in. Breathe out

Everything is alright

No one can break your will

You know what's right

So do it

04/18/2025

On getting jerked around

No ones going to pull a fast one on me

I don't car who you think you are

but I don't go down without a fight

Kiss my Kosher Ass

04/17/2025

Wrong Lesson Learned

One of the wrong lessons

I learned was intentional isolation

Too much pain and Simon and Garfunkel

convicted me it was better to be a rock

and that my poetry would protect me

But in reality I have just built a Fort Knox

to protect a scar, not an open wound

I've long felt, feared even

that people do not care about me

and in doing so I stopped them from entering my World

or dismissed any semblance of good intention

Now I am left asking

what good is a shield when there is no war

04/16/2025

Apples

Apple trees bloom

when the crows caw

and frogs croak

They smell so sweet

and taste sweeter when they grow fruit

Apples by the bushel

I could eat them all

04/15/2025

Getting it done

Ink Ink Ink

Pen Pen Pen

Write Write Write

Letters

04/14/2025

Who Knows

Walking at Night

Walking at high noon

and I always whistle the same tune

Living my life like I live on the top self

When I am alone I always got myself

and my feet carry me wherever I want to go

Doctor says my mind runs fast

I think the world runs slow

The Sun is finally alive again

and I'm dreaming of snow

I take a breathe and so on

with my bonsai life

slow growing and purposeful

That's the way I like it

Always changing Always upwards

04/13/2025

Rat Race

The end is near

but there is still work to be done

There's always work

That's okay

Forward Forward Forward

The race is not run till it is done

04/12/2025

Passover

Four questions

Four glasses of wine

Ten plagues

Ten commandments

Forty years

Generations of Slavery

Generations of Freedom

Thousands of years

Remember the covenant

Remember the suffering

Rid that suffering from the World

Oppose oppression with every breathe

Then we will all live

בישראל בשלום

Remember Passover

Celebrate Passover

תקן עולם 

04/11/2025

The Jungle at the End of Time

The light is growing

but soon it will stop

for it can only grow so large

and my machete will catch up with the expanded jungle

and wack everything down like it once was and should be

That day is coming and I am ready

but I have been fighting so long

I'm losing sight of the flight

I had a second wind

The help of others will sustain me

I will succeed

04/10/2025

The Night Tomorrow

The sun will come out tomorrow

where the rain will walk far away

I rest partly into the night

sailing on my way to tomorrow

Goodnight moon I'll see you tomorrow

Goodnight light I will see you tomorrow

Goodnight tomorrow

04/09/2025

Night Moves

Walking in the dark

wondering who to call

this late at night

It rings then I'm talking

to the machine

Let's try someone new

Oh hello, Sorry it's late

I just wanted to see

how you were doing

It's lonely to walk alone

and the streets are always alone

at this hour

We chat and I find myself

at home at last

04/08/2025

Sequoia in the Sand

High noon Sun beams cascade

over the granulated landscape

A slight breeze guides the eye

to a non-oasis anomaly

A sequoia is trying to grown in the dessert

There is not enough water

The soil is poor

The only thing in excess is UV and heat

and this is where the unfortunate seed landed

Our tree could have outgrown Hyperion

in the right environment but instead

it chose to grown in the sand

with no one to push it towards greatness

The sapling will survive though

I doubt it will thrive

04/07/2025

Apartment

Where did they go?

Has my isolation aspirations pop too soon?

I did it to soften the blow

but here I am

alone again, naturally

My apartment is nice, close, convenient

I guess I'm not

too closed off

too disinterested

too afraid of a connection

I've said it before and

I'll say it again

Sometimes I fear I've learned all the wrong lessons

from what life has thrown at me

04/06/2025

Why the Good Die Young

They say the good die young

but say nothing of the old

and who is this They

and why do they crave an early grave

Seems to me if you die young

you die dumb

Too early to learn what's true

and for to early to fight for it

No I don't think the good die young

I think people just die agnostic to their quote un quote goodness

The young are strong but inexperienced

The old are fattened up and grow the compliant

But there are the old who are still strong

and grow wise

Those are They when the good runs dry.

04/05/2025

The Stoic

Today I read something about myself

which is always interesting

Am I so unmoved that I deserve the title of stoic

Do I show so little emotion?

I try very hard to be human,

not machine

but maybe I've been doing more math than people

for awhile now

Sometimes I feel like an open box in a high security vault

The emotions and stories are there,

just not for public consumption

Because I am afraid if people will not like what's inside

04/04/2025

Home of the stand still sweat

The Swamp has returned

to the Old North State

It's gummy air sticks

and clings to the skin

like it's about to drown

If the devil were to call a place it's home

the South in Summer would top the list

I miss the cold already

04/03/2025

Liberation Day

Throw it all away

all the work

all the lives

for an idea from a senile cent coloured man

Money's not real

People don't need to eat

Education only tells lies

America is Great

So let's chop off it's legs

and see if it'll still swim

Kick out the foreigners too

The last people who risked their lives

saving the American Dream

They still believe in it. Do We?

P.S. I guess we'd deport someone for writing something like this? Kiss my kosher ass you spineless serpents. I pray that your gods are true so they can sort you once this is all said and done.

04/02/2025

Staff Bowling and the thin skin of a narcissistic man

It's all funny now

I play the game

and my dear friend

is trying to hula-hoop

while unicycling with his shoes tied

He's got egg on his face

a lot of it

I'd feel bad but he did it to himself

I laugh. I don't care

04/01/2025

Last Thoughts of the Day

Jokes are fun

they make me laugh

and I like laughing

I'm so tired

...

Ahhhhh

Sleep Now

03/31/2025

Quit Hitting Yourself

Now I walk in my own old shoes

without socks to better feel

what I have been

Looking back

I have been big and I have been small

Fears devoured only to be spit out again

but less each time

passes faster than it used to...

and at a faster rate

Four times my age I'll be 92

Will I still wear a size 8.5 shoe?

If only we could see forward

like we can see back,

but even back is fuzzy

Breathe

You are of flesh and blood

You are doing fine, great even

Remember to smell the mustard gas and roses

and tie your shoes while you're at it

P.S. This marks 1 year of daily poetry